I began writing this on Jan 20, and debated posting until I had results:
If you are ever in conversation with angels, and they do the quick flash thing, it's their way of distracting your line of thinking. The brighter the flash, the more important the distraction it seems.
For instance, a few years ago when I was in the middle of insulting myself - a very quick very bright flash came. "There are just more important things to be concerned with."
Of course, it doesn't mean you HAVE to change your course of thinking, but I would advise you to accept the wisdom - especially if you can be certain it was angels speaking with you.
And you can be certain by continuing to think and continuing to have your discussions (with heaven/with God/with yourself); you'll end up where you need to be. This has been my experience over the years.
Tonight was no exception. I forgot what I was talking about before the flash came. It wasn't a very bright flash, but it was just bright enough to catch my attention.
But then I moved on to justice, and I later said, "You know, for me, justice has always been to stop doing what causes harm" and a spacecraft became luminous and bright and flew out from behind the leafless trees and flew overhead.
While outside, my eyebrows began itching. Earlier in the day I wondered (again) if the dermatitis on my skin is a matter of justice, or if it is a matter of waiting to be healed - God is glorified either way - and my faith is in the faithfulness of God.
I said to myself, "I wonder if it's something I'm eating". A spacecraft flew, but the response was a bit inconclusive to me. And I said, "This has been going on since my 20s. What new thing did I begin in my 20s??"
I was puzzled - because my diet was the same from childhood up until that point - only except it wasn't.
In my early 20s I dieted because of historical pain and shame and humiliation, and a low-carb diet was my diet of choice.
Doing low-carb, I took a liking to sucralose (the sweetener found in Splenda) because it tasted the most like sugar, it didn't give me a headache (like aspartame), and I still lost weight.
I haven't eaten a low-carb diet in years, but I still consume sucralose as my sweetener of choice because I drink coffee in the morning and cold tea almost daily, and I use sucralose in both. I also use sucralose in cooking to balance dishes that require it.
Not much thought about it until tonight - and I say "not much thought" because I questioned it before, and searched for correlations between sucralose and dermatitis and found nothing - so I haven't thought about it.
So I will see how it goes, to see if sucralose is actually the culprit. My rest is God's faithfulness - and I am only able do justice when I know what is just.
Repentance is always justice, it is always deed; and if repentance is not performed through justice then it is not repentance and it remains unacceptable to God.
To the flowers in God's Garden, the community of faithful lovers: You are who you are. Why do you apologize so often? Can you apologize for being yourself?
It is you who needs to change if you are to effectively change the behavioral patterns you know are harmful (for which you so often apologize). Trying to force yourself to not be yourself is not a worthwhile long-term solution.
Know yourself, seek out the roots of what make you you so that you can begin to understand why you do the things you do. Lean on God's faithfulness in every moment, and walk.
My own goal, through God's Glory, is to never ever again walk according to the pain given me, but only to walk according to the faith given me.
It is becoming more and more apparent to me that I am to show people how to repent - "Sodom" especially - and maybe others.
God has hardened your heart, covered your eyes, and clogged your ears - so I know that you cannot hear right now.
My hope is not that you will repent (by watching me), but rather, in the hour God softens your heart, uncovers your eyes, and opens your ears - through peace, circumstance, or terror - you will know exactly how to repent.
