Tweets - September 16th - Praise

What is a rebuke other than encouragement to pursue what is honest and good? The more necessary the encouragement, the more severe the rebuke.

Last night I experienced a subtle rebuke, it was noticeably subtle and persistent - I didn't immediately grasp it. I was thinking about the time I complemented someone on how good they made the coffee - and the subtle rebukes began. Also, 2 or 3 of the "watching" angels showed up as well as some angels of affirmation. I was rebuked 2 or 3 more times, and then I understood the message.

The issue I am having is self-praise, and more specifically (after some talks with heaven tonight) the need to be praised. It is something I recognized a little while back - envisioning myself as a fantastic singer or piano player (not receiving rounds of applause, but admiring myself as such). I recognized it but didn't put much thought into it - not until heaven brought it to my attention so that I'd make it an important matter to myself.

I've come to understand that all these things are rooted in the pain and trauma I've experienced. As long as I am being praised, I am not being judged and condemned. It is very interesting to me. As long as I am being praised, I am not being made to feel ashamed. And to heap ointment on these open wounds, I praise myself.

This may seem like a small thing, but it really displays my scabs, my bruises, and my scars. Heaven insists that I be very aware of them.

Heaven rebuked me once tonight when I became concerned about how to deal with this issue of needing to praised. (Thinking deeply, "Now what do I need to do? Or is God taking care of it?")

How quickly I forgot that I only need to recognize these things, understand them as best I can, pursue justice (pursuing what is so very good and gentle and kind and true and joyfully human), and walk by the faith given to me.

Tweets - September 3rd - In Conclusion

When you've been moved forward, you can look back and see how you've been pushed forward.

I now understand that the individual dimly-lit spacecrafts that have been flying above these last few months have been acknowledging that they are watching me, monitoring my actions, and that I still need their attention and guidance in current matters.

2 nights ago I was thinking about the resurrection, and I was concerned about those people walking by faith and understanding the love of God (as faith, for me, has come because of the time spent with God and the wisdom and kindness and honesty of God).

A spacecraft appeared and sparked/flickered - but not brightly (as I was not being sternly rebuked) - but they wanted to alert me that I was getting off track. I then understood that I don't need to be anxious about anything, not even the Garden of God.

For the last few nights, including last night and tonight, I saw none of the "watching" angels, so I suppose this period and lesson has come to its conclusion, as heaven is satisfied in my position, and I have been entrusted to continue to walk on my own

(in this endeavor of being a human being who has regarded their humanity, acknowledging each emotion, all while pursuing what is honest and good; who sees that God is love, always receiving exactly what is needed; who leans on that love, which is God in fullness).