Tweets - August 28th - Offensive

The idea of God is often so profoundly offensive to people who've left religion. I sympathize with you, even with your bitter remarks. I was raised Pentecostal, and I was told by every child, adult, pastor and prophet that I was going to hell because I found men attractive. One prophet even said that God was going to burn all fags alive in fire in the year 2000, and like everyone else in that congregation, I believed him. Only difference between me and everyone else was that I was scared shitless; I was only about 15 years old at the time (1994/95). Any remaining childhood innocence and sexual liberty I had was taken away; it was gone. So (as many can relate - even those who have not yet left their beliefs) I hated the fact that I found men attractive, and I tried to like tits, I really did. I'm pretty sure I tried masturbating to pictures of women (the internet was still up and coming) - such a waste of time, especially since I still found my way to pictures of naked men. I became a bible thumper. I became arrogant; I was right, you were wrong and I was not afraid to let you know.

But in 1999, some people above decided it was time to throw a wrench in the cogs of my life, the life of a truly sad child. I was allowed to peek. "I did not ask for this!", "I did not want it!", "I did not want to see it!", "I'm already fighting my sexual attraction and you decided to do this to me!". It was like some woman flashed me her cooch, grabbed me by the head, and shoved my face into it. It offended me, and besides one person (who I'm still close with), I told no one what I saw (at the time). It was embarrassing, and I just didn't want another reason for people to point and laugh at me.

For sake of reference, a story I've since told a thousand times: "When I was a teenager, I worked at Six Flags America in Largo, Maryland. One evening, in 1999 while walking toward the employee exit, I looked up at the stars and an odd bright star caught my eye - it simply didn't look like the rest. While walking and staring at this odd star, the star shot off in a spiral motion and flew out into space at an incredible speed. I stopped walking and dropped my mouth in complete awe. I looked around to see if anyone else just saw what I had seen, but they were teenagers, running around and playing."

Even though I was allowed to peek, it still didn't stop my engines - I just lived with that annoyingly loud banging wrench for as long as I could; but they (pointing upward) knew my engine would slowly breakdown overtime, and there was no way I was avoiding it. No rush, everything on time.

So, you see, I'm looking forward to some of you being able to peek. If the idea of God offends you or if you are still religious, you won't like it. You might not see what I saw, as you may require something different altogether, but whatever it is, it'll be just what you need at just the right time in just the right way.

Acts 22:6-7 "But it happened that as I was on my way, approaching Damascus about noontime, a very bright light suddenly flashed from heaven all around me, and I fell to the ground and heard a voice saying to me, 'Saul, why are you persecuting Me?'".

The book of Acts was written by men who were ashamed of the liberty of Yeshua (Christ), but I believe this particular story because I can relate. As bad mouthed as I was, I was no violent murderous Pharisee. So a painful blinding light was not required for me, but it was for him.

Tweets - August 22nd - Peek

It looks like some people are going to be permitted to take a peek behind the veil. This was the message I receive tonight. What this means is that, for a brief moment, some of you will be stopped in your tracks in absolute astonishment. Beyond this, I can only speculate.

God wants a Garden of Liberty here, and it's ongoing construction is going to piss off a lot of people - even those allowed to peek.

Why a peek? Well, it is a nail hammered so far in your flesh that it becomes impossible to remove. You'll probably find it offensive, if not downright painful, but it will change you as necessary (for your sake and the Garden's).

You'll understand that the light of a child's endless youth and the darkness of an adult's looming death both belong to God; you are what God made you to be. You'll peek and see, and you may take offense.

Tweets - August 15th - Authoritarians

Authoritarianism is coming to an end. Authoritarians in the workplace, authoritarians in the home, authoritarians at the altar; they are all coming to an end.

So many people are going to be pissed off because they can no longer rule over those with less strength. They can no longer control others, they don't even have a say anymore. Boo hoo.

So many mothers, and fathers, and husbands, and legislators will be pissed off; they will see red and grind their teeth as they march toward the grave. People are really going to try to fight God on this. But God wants a Garden of Liberty here, and that's that.

God knows exactly who you are, exactly what makes you you, and God has solutions. The path is going to be tough to follow, even though it's as flat as a fresh paved road, even though there are lights as bright as the sun leading the way.

Tweets - August 7th - Timothy, Dicks and Women

I just read first Timothy (in the bible), and it literally mansplained to me the misogynistic message of what it means to be a church leader. I dropped my jaw and clutched my pearls a few times reading that book. For instance, 1 Timothy 4:6-7, "In pointing out these things to the brethren, you will be a good servant of Christ Jesus, constantly nourished on the words of the faith and of the sound doctrine which you have been following. But have nothing to do with worldly fables fit only for old women." I suppose it's only fair that I remember where y'all are coming from, but I've forgotten all of this, and I am not impressed.

First Timothy was written for godless people who understood that they were physically rejected by God, and any real hope of God's kindness would have to be reserved for the unseeable future (heaven, Jesus's return, rapture, etc). To them, it became all about being a believer and pious and full of good deeds (even though Yeshua the Christ, whom they rejected, said to them plainly, "Be honest with yourselves and do not do what you hate. For that which is in darkness will be brought to light."). So they started doing things themselves, not building on the law of human decency, but rather on the law of being obedient and having restrictive sex (and all the foulness sex represented to them ...and therefore God). Incidentally, first Timothy is centered on the awesomeness of having a dick.

"Therefore, I want younger widows to get married, bear children, keep house, and give the enemy no occasion for reproach; for some have already turned aside to follow Satan." ...by having too many orgasms while wearing contraception and not doing the dishes (or keeping house).

"At the same time they also learn to be idle, as they go around from house to house; and not merely idle, but also gossips and busybodies, talking about things not proper to mention." Those damned women. The lord really needs to get a grip and understand that having a vagina does not make you a lesser person, or a gossiping busybody.

Honestly, the book doesn't sound even like Paul. Maybe some of chapter 1, but none of the rest.

Tweets - August 6th - Doubt

My own feelings. I have been very encouraged by this. It reminds me of the cloud-wing over the Sahara all those years ago - that encouraged me too. It's not that these things founded my faith, but they are a complement and addition to what I've been made to understand.

I've surely been down that rabbit hole of feelings of doubt - questioning whether God left me all alone, but the beauty that God has given me is always present. So I haven't had any of those of those feelings lately. Even if I did, I don't expect God to treat me any differently.

The mercy of God is not founded or dependent on my trust, my trust is founded and dependent on God's mercy. As such, I have never been treated differently by God because of my questionings. I think Paul may have been correct in that the calling of God is irrevocable.

The establishing of my faith did not require much. God only needed to show me kindness, and the counsel of angels only helped. So there is no threat of me going off in a thousand different directions from the path God set me on. But I don't think this is enough for the world.

As far as I'm aware, a person's faith must be established on the kindness of God. But this view may change in the days ahead as God has been doing new things (from my perspective).

For some, it may be possible for their faith to be founded on what they see God doing, in others, wrath will first be required (the Earth will need to undergo wrath so that people will NEVER EVER EVER again plant the seeds they have planted).

Thinking more about these things, I suppose if trusting God becomes a serious problem for someone called, then God would get involved and do what needed to be done (whatever that is); especially if this lack of trust begins to affect their behavior.

While in distress, I was given advice from above several years ago, and I was told that I never needed to fear God leaving me alone and I never needed to be hopeful that God would do good. I trust this advice (I do now anyway).