You, oh Yahweh, my Mother, my Friend, have been my only song for years. You invaded my darkness and became my light, and I have been humbled in Your majesty, and I am so glad. I have had a few lovers over the years, but You have been my only song every time.
You are the only thing in front of me. When I look ahead, I only see Your Glory. You are Life. You are pleasures forever. I am so glad that the gods of this world are only foul idols, they are awful things, awful gods of war.
They command their servants to make weapons and take up arms because of promises of mercy. But You have required nothing from us other than what you give: mercy. They even used to sacrifice their children, at least someone had the sense to take that part out of their bible.
They are abhorrent, they and their servants. You are justified in sending them to the grave, forever it seemed. They have said in their hearts, "God's grace comes through judgment and bloodshed", because they have no known You, nor have they cared to.
It is not grace if I have to pay for it, You'd only be giving what we are due. I am so glad You are You and no one else. No, you don't require the payment of blood, gore, and sacrifice; Your grace is grace.
Soon, they will be found sounding horns and beating drums to put out the great fire. Instead of using water, they will use something useless altogether. They will hate that You have rejected their offerings and sacrifices as their beloved building, their hope, is turned into ash.
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"Who are You that watches my ancestors rot in their grave, allowing every awful thing, it seems, to burden me?", asked no one. Chile, that was my first question. Then the God I did not know, seeing that grace would be sufficient for me, answered. I knocked and the door flew open.
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I will never walk in solidarity with you because you are gay, or black, or my closest friend, or my mother. You'll look for me, but you won't find me.
Who is my true mother other than she who stood in the counsel of God? "She" can be cis or trans for all I care. When the gay or black person, or my friend or mother understands what it means to, "Lean on God", then I'll be standing right there at their side in genuine solidarity.
In order to understand why I don't stand in solidarity with you, you'll need to ask God why God stands by to let our ancestors rot in the grave. In order to do this, you must first entertain the idea of abandoning all those things taught to you by your mother and your grandmother.
I know, impossible. I love you anyway.
Friday, March 29, 2019
Thursday, March 28, 2019
Tweets - March 28th
June 30, 2011 - " I was informed from above that I should expect the worst from people - this was confirmed by the messengers in such a way that they caused their light to shine exceedingly bright over Williamsburg, VA."
God is going to be found visiting the world, country after country, over and over, into people remember what it is to be human - and it's going to hurt. I think, more than anything, it'll cause a great rising of nut-jobs, who can't accept that they don't know anything after all.
Nut-jobs sometimes turn into leaders and prophets - and this is dangerous. I'm going to say what I think I should say, when I think I should say it. But I am just not looking forward to weirdos banging on my door looking for answers or violence.
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Recognizing a false prophet is easy. If anyone comes to you and tries to convince you to give up your liberty, encourage you to judge others in the slightest, or treat others in ways you'd never want to be treated, you can be sure that the Living God did not send them.
If you follow after them, then you will receive the recompense of a false prophet. Plainly speaking, this is life on your own and then death. God will not entertain the thought of putrefying the Garden because of your awful deeds.
You know how you like to be treated. It's wrong for you to beg to get your dick sucked, but not return a similar favor in kind. If you don't want to give head, then do not seek to receive it. Let's keep things simple and go from there.
Being a decent human is easy. God may be severe, no doubt (trillions of deaths are your evidence), but what God requires of us is not severe. If God's burden was so heavy and ruthless, we'd be justified in turning our backs; but we are not. Just be a decent babe.
You cannot be a decent human being by perpetually lying about others (including God). You tell your children that God deep-fries people in cooking oil if they tell too many lies, when you yourself would never consider doing anything remotely as cruel to anyone.
You've seen with your own eyes what God does to people, people that God cannot trust. Trillions of times over. They are on their own.
You have watched the severity of God, and you have never had doubts about it. If you traveled to a planet where God was merciful and saved everyone from death, you could tell them all about God's bitterness and severity with the utmost confidence, clarity, and certainty.
With God, the options are simple - life or death. If you want to live, you gotta learn to be decent (honest, trustworthy, merciful - you know how you like to be treated). Life (healing, purpose, pleasure) is eternal, it is why God does what God has been doing and will do.
I think it may be difficult in some respects to expect people to be truly decent, as no one can trust God. Guns and ammunition are a multibillion dollar industry - that there's a whole lot of people who would never follow someone like Moses into a dry and barren desert.
Trusting God is leaning on God's salvation. It's easy done if you have reason to think that attempting to lean on God won't leave you crashing to the floor. But as the world knows - very bad idea. God cannot be trusted - maybe with souls and invisible things, but not with life.
So there's no trusting God unless God wants to be trusted. God's grace was enough for me, but grace is not enough for someone like you. You need something a bit more encouraging and "in your face". God's wrath will be poured out like "understanding" over this world.
You will be baffled, shocked, surprised, afraid, and devastated. Distress will not be manufactured from your mouth nor your flesh ever again when God is finished with you. What will be left is something dead or something eternal. How awful is the passion of God? How amazing?
God is going to be found visiting the world, country after country, over and over, into people remember what it is to be human - and it's going to hurt. I think, more than anything, it'll cause a great rising of nut-jobs, who can't accept that they don't know anything after all.
Nut-jobs sometimes turn into leaders and prophets - and this is dangerous. I'm going to say what I think I should say, when I think I should say it. But I am just not looking forward to weirdos banging on my door looking for answers or violence.
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Recognizing a false prophet is easy. If anyone comes to you and tries to convince you to give up your liberty, encourage you to judge others in the slightest, or treat others in ways you'd never want to be treated, you can be sure that the Living God did not send them.
If you follow after them, then you will receive the recompense of a false prophet. Plainly speaking, this is life on your own and then death. God will not entertain the thought of putrefying the Garden because of your awful deeds.
You know how you like to be treated. It's wrong for you to beg to get your dick sucked, but not return a similar favor in kind. If you don't want to give head, then do not seek to receive it. Let's keep things simple and go from there.
Being a decent human is easy. God may be severe, no doubt (trillions of deaths are your evidence), but what God requires of us is not severe. If God's burden was so heavy and ruthless, we'd be justified in turning our backs; but we are not. Just be a decent babe.
You cannot be a decent human being by perpetually lying about others (including God). You tell your children that God deep-fries people in cooking oil if they tell too many lies, when you yourself would never consider doing anything remotely as cruel to anyone.
You've seen with your own eyes what God does to people, people that God cannot trust. Trillions of times over. They are on their own.
You have watched the severity of God, and you have never had doubts about it. If you traveled to a planet where God was merciful and saved everyone from death, you could tell them all about God's bitterness and severity with the utmost confidence, clarity, and certainty.
With God, the options are simple - life or death. If you want to live, you gotta learn to be decent (honest, trustworthy, merciful - you know how you like to be treated). Life (healing, purpose, pleasure) is eternal, it is why God does what God has been doing and will do.
I think it may be difficult in some respects to expect people to be truly decent, as no one can trust God. Guns and ammunition are a multibillion dollar industry - that there's a whole lot of people who would never follow someone like Moses into a dry and barren desert.
Trusting God is leaning on God's salvation. It's easy done if you have reason to think that attempting to lean on God won't leave you crashing to the floor. But as the world knows - very bad idea. God cannot be trusted - maybe with souls and invisible things, but not with life.
So there's no trusting God unless God wants to be trusted. God's grace was enough for me, but grace is not enough for someone like you. You need something a bit more encouraging and "in your face". God's wrath will be poured out like "understanding" over this world.
You will be baffled, shocked, surprised, afraid, and devastated. Distress will not be manufactured from your mouth nor your flesh ever again when God is finished with you. What will be left is something dead or something eternal. How awful is the passion of God? How amazing?
Tuesday, March 26, 2019
Tweets - March 26th - On Capitalism
Woe is me. I created such a glorious economic system, my capitalism, my sweet child. Oh, but alas, she depends on craftiness and mercilessness; like ravenous lions mauling gazelles, she requires an ideal rate of poor and broken people to sustain her.
She requires fear in order to survive, otherwise, how could I remain wealthy, and why would the broken slit their wrists for her purposelessly? As often as people are afraid of losing the little they have, my child is safe from harm.
My child demands so much; she receives all she demands. So police, judges, and politicians create and enforce laws to keep her safe.
And if any of those poor and broken people forget their place - their required blood sacrifice - and begin to steal, then they'll have to be shot dead or spend years in jail to rehabilitate and accept the system as is.
I'll allow you daily drunken stupors to cope, but you better not dare offend my system, my sweet child. No, my system does not need rehabilitation. You're the problem, not my child. Fixing you is the ONLY viable solution.
So what if she takes large lofty shits all over the planet, throwing animals into extinction and crippling the climate? Just start another charity, keep donating; that seems to work. I'm satisfied in knowing my limits, knowing that nothing else could be done.
No, I could think of no other system, no other way to grow and thrive. Woe is me. My brain took me this far and would go no further. I could not gather myself to think of better solutions, new alternatives, other potential options, no, nothing else could be done.
She requires fear in order to survive, otherwise, how could I remain wealthy, and why would the broken slit their wrists for her purposelessly? As often as people are afraid of losing the little they have, my child is safe from harm.
My child demands so much; she receives all she demands. So police, judges, and politicians create and enforce laws to keep her safe.
And if any of those poor and broken people forget their place - their required blood sacrifice - and begin to steal, then they'll have to be shot dead or spend years in jail to rehabilitate and accept the system as is.
I'll allow you daily drunken stupors to cope, but you better not dare offend my system, my sweet child. No, my system does not need rehabilitation. You're the problem, not my child. Fixing you is the ONLY viable solution.
So what if she takes large lofty shits all over the planet, throwing animals into extinction and crippling the climate? Just start another charity, keep donating; that seems to work. I'm satisfied in knowing my limits, knowing that nothing else could be done.
No, I could think of no other system, no other way to grow and thrive. Woe is me. My brain took me this far and would go no further. I could not gather myself to think of better solutions, new alternatives, other potential options, no, nothing else could be done.
Saturday, March 23, 2019
Tweets - March 23rd
In the beginning, when God showed me a little light, it meant so very much to me. I didn't understand it, nor was I expected to, but I appreciated the little I had been given; as such I had been forgiven.
People do not respond much to light on this planet. It's like hearing a penny drop in a bucket. It'll catch your attention, stir up a few emotions, but then you keep on walking your same path. People have watched flesh be transformed from dead to living, and watched angels speak and admonish, and no one heeds these things. God is aware.
So now we should expect God to become deep darkness to this place, since light has meant jack shit here. It will only be when the world is pushed into deep darkness will they crave light, even just a little; but right now, no one longs for it, and this is unacceptable. It appears angels agree with me tonight.
I admire the whirlwind idea, it's like a one-stop shop for all the world. God is made knowable through God's deeds. Perhaps this is what we should continue to expect going forward as the heat is increased, causing people to jump out of the frying pan into the fire.
People do not respond much to light on this planet. It's like hearing a penny drop in a bucket. It'll catch your attention, stir up a few emotions, but then you keep on walking your same path. People have watched flesh be transformed from dead to living, and watched angels speak and admonish, and no one heeds these things. God is aware.
So now we should expect God to become deep darkness to this place, since light has meant jack shit here. It will only be when the world is pushed into deep darkness will they crave light, even just a little; but right now, no one longs for it, and this is unacceptable. It appears angels agree with me tonight.
I admire the whirlwind idea, it's like a one-stop shop for all the world. God is made knowable through God's deeds. Perhaps this is what we should continue to expect going forward as the heat is increased, causing people to jump out of the frying pan into the fire.
Friday, March 22, 2019
Tweets - March 22nd
My take on recent weather anomalies, it's the beginning of sound judgment. The human race will know eternal life, but people cannot go into life as they currently are. The work and judgment of God is awful and arduous; people have to be refined so those who survive can shine.
The anomalies appear to be the effects of climate change. However, such coincidences were my beginnings with God. Though they were shocking and amazing, coincidences weren't enough for me, and neither will they be for you. As they were, they never ceased to be. On to step 2?
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The severity of God is something that man will learn not to trifle with. It is the severity of God's judgment that causes men, women, and children in this world to die and wither away. You arm yourselves, because you know for a fact that God will watch a robber enter your home and torment your family. Knowing God's stance in the matter (as even your faith declares unwaveringly), you arm yourselves. When you understand and believe God and understand how severe God has been with humanity, you will never again tip your eyes upward and thank God for awards or lotteries; it will become absolute ridiculousness to you.
Your prophets can't save your life. They cannot convince God to be merciful and kind and loving toward you. You have never known these things from God, and if you think some silly award is the kindness of God, then you too will understand God's great severity. Has your prophet attempted to convince you of things that can't actually be proven? If so, then he is no prophet of the Living God. God has not spoken to him. His prophecies are the wishful and directed thinking of his own imagination. Let me guess? Has he asked you to sow a seed? I sow seeds, but mine produce fruit, and I didn't have to sacrifice a single thing. What was the great cost of your seed? What has it produced? Wind? Whirlwind?
The anomalies appear to be the effects of climate change. However, such coincidences were my beginnings with God. Though they were shocking and amazing, coincidences weren't enough for me, and neither will they be for you. As they were, they never ceased to be. On to step 2?
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The severity of God is something that man will learn not to trifle with. It is the severity of God's judgment that causes men, women, and children in this world to die and wither away. You arm yourselves, because you know for a fact that God will watch a robber enter your home and torment your family. Knowing God's stance in the matter (as even your faith declares unwaveringly), you arm yourselves. When you understand and believe God and understand how severe God has been with humanity, you will never again tip your eyes upward and thank God for awards or lotteries; it will become absolute ridiculousness to you.
Your prophets can't save your life. They cannot convince God to be merciful and kind and loving toward you. You have never known these things from God, and if you think some silly award is the kindness of God, then you too will understand God's great severity. Has your prophet attempted to convince you of things that can't actually be proven? If so, then he is no prophet of the Living God. God has not spoken to him. His prophecies are the wishful and directed thinking of his own imagination. Let me guess? Has he asked you to sow a seed? I sow seeds, but mine produce fruit, and I didn't have to sacrifice a single thing. What was the great cost of your seed? What has it produced? Wind? Whirlwind?
Tuesday, March 19, 2019
Tweets - March 19th
I don't always mention those spacecrafts when they fly overhead at night, but sometimes I do, especially if I think the message should be shared. 2 spacecrafts flew overhead tonight.
I've noticed for some time now that I sometimes have to force a smile on my face and lighten my eyes when I'm around others. It's been a while since I've been in a really good mood. I went to a drag show 2 weeks ago at the Warner theater in DC, and it was just like being at home.
So tonight while outside, I looked up and asked, "maybe I'm sad?", and a spacecraft flew overhead in confirmation. This explains a lot actually. I'm not sad, as in "woe is me", nor do I feel like crying or that I should be balled up in some corner (which is why it's perplexing).
I feel like I could take on any mountain and stand against the foolishness of this world. But still, there are some emotions I need to understand and deal with; I think I'm holding on to something that I need to let go.
I then thought more about the message I received and while speaking said, "I don't lack any good thing." Then the second spacecraft flew overhead in confirmation. This was an inspiring message and is all something for me to ponder on for a while.
Maybe I'm not holding onto anything. Maybe it's just the sum of my anguish and dealings with this world. If I were surrounded by people who'd rather turn steel into frying pans instead of guns, I imagine I'd be in a far better mood. But I'll keep seeking until I find.
In any case, I'll be glad when I no longer have to wear this sackcloth.
I've noticed for some time now that I sometimes have to force a smile on my face and lighten my eyes when I'm around others. It's been a while since I've been in a really good mood. I went to a drag show 2 weeks ago at the Warner theater in DC, and it was just like being at home.
So tonight while outside, I looked up and asked, "maybe I'm sad?", and a spacecraft flew overhead in confirmation. This explains a lot actually. I'm not sad, as in "woe is me", nor do I feel like crying or that I should be balled up in some corner (which is why it's perplexing).
I feel like I could take on any mountain and stand against the foolishness of this world. But still, there are some emotions I need to understand and deal with; I think I'm holding on to something that I need to let go.
I then thought more about the message I received and while speaking said, "I don't lack any good thing." Then the second spacecraft flew overhead in confirmation. This was an inspiring message and is all something for me to ponder on for a while.
Maybe I'm not holding onto anything. Maybe it's just the sum of my anguish and dealings with this world. If I were surrounded by people who'd rather turn steel into frying pans instead of guns, I imagine I'd be in a far better mood. But I'll keep seeking until I find.
In any case, I'll be glad when I no longer have to wear this sackcloth.
Sunday, March 17, 2019
Tweets - March 14th & 16th
If the God you see now is different from the God you hope to see in heaven after you're dead, then it's safe to assume you worship an idol (an invisible god in heaven/in your mind). Holy scriptures are the wood and gold used to create it.
Every valuable lesson from God is taught through experience. When I say "God is kind", and you believe me, but then you expect God to watch you get sick or grow decrepit, die and wither away, then there is a disconnect between what I say and what you think I'm saying.
As people's hearts say, "God does just as much in life as an atheist expects". Sure, you hope to have good health for a while and a lot of money in the bank, but at the end of it all, your expectations and an atheists expectations are one and the same (dying and withering away).
When confronted by the truth (regardless of source or the message) it provides an opportunity to come together, to learn, to understand what's truly wrong, to build solutions. Truth should not be met with violence (verbal nor physical).
Every valuable lesson from God is taught through experience. When I say "God is kind", and you believe me, but then you expect God to watch you get sick or grow decrepit, die and wither away, then there is a disconnect between what I say and what you think I'm saying.
As people's hearts say, "God does just as much in life as an atheist expects". Sure, you hope to have good health for a while and a lot of money in the bank, but at the end of it all, your expectations and an atheists expectations are one and the same (dying and withering away).
When confronted by the truth (regardless of source or the message) it provides an opportunity to come together, to learn, to understand what's truly wrong, to build solutions. Truth should not be met with violence (verbal nor physical).
Thursday, March 14, 2019
Tweets - March 14th
More Kelvin Bell Retweeted Joel Osteen
"God is going to make things happen that you didn’t see coming." I agree with this. However, it's more likely that God will give your listeners exactly what they've earned; exactly what they qualify for; payment for work performed - insomuch as God is glorified in truth.
If I fear my enemy, there is no room for love or mercy. If I build my defense as strong as steel, and my sword as powerful as the sun, then there is no room for love or mercy (not honestly, not for my enemy).
Is God the twisted author of confusion, encouraging me to build a fortified wall to keep my enemies out and, at the same time, telling me to love and forgive my enemies? I cannot do both at the same time (not actively, not honestly).
As such, either God would teach me kindness so that I can lean on God as my defense, or God must be OK with me hating and killing my enemies (as all holy scriptures teach). You have trusted the latter with all your heart, and that is what separates me from you.
"God is going to make things happen that you didn’t see coming." I agree with this. However, it's more likely that God will give your listeners exactly what they've earned; exactly what they qualify for; payment for work performed - insomuch as God is glorified in truth.
If I fear my enemy, there is no room for love or mercy. If I build my defense as strong as steel, and my sword as powerful as the sun, then there is no room for love or mercy (not honestly, not for my enemy).
Is God the twisted author of confusion, encouraging me to build a fortified wall to keep my enemies out and, at the same time, telling me to love and forgive my enemies? I cannot do both at the same time (not actively, not honestly).
As such, either God would teach me kindness so that I can lean on God as my defense, or God must be OK with me hating and killing my enemies (as all holy scriptures teach). You have trusted the latter with all your heart, and that is what separates me from you.
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