Tweets - December 17th - Be Honest

Heaven has been helping me see more plainly what is in front of me. Honesty and Liberty go together hand-in-hand. Walking by faith is not just to walk in the faithfulness (trustworthiness, honesty, care) of God, but it is also to walk in the faithfulness of mankind.

Heaven made it clear to me (again) that I don't need to jump to conclusions, especially about people, as I don't know them and I don't know where they are from or why they truly do the things they do. No need to assume because of my own experiences or anecdotal evidence. My job is to just be honest with them, with you, about plain in-your-face things, and to walk by faith in the Power and Love and Kindness and Trustworthiness and Character of God (who has remain unchanged from day one with me).

My job is to just be honest, allowing to flourish whatever God will flourish and allowing to perish whatever God will perish. If I see a light bulb go off over you and in you and around you, then I will be an honest guardrail to you, but I will also walk by faith in the Liberty that is your humanity.

I am so very looking forward to watching you shine in this Earth, being glorified by God as you do whatever things you will do, turning lumps of dirt into beautiful systems that upbuild the Garden of God and encourage our well-being and our liberty.

Tweets - December 8th - Holiness for Dummies

You gotta love God's "Holiness for Dummies" books. Volumes 1, 2 and 3, they're all great. This world is a beacon of light because of them.

In Volume 1, we learn that sometimes it's OK to rape, enslave, slaughter, and be racist - as long as we get the thumbs-up of approval from God.

In Volumes 2 and 3, we learn about the torments of hell, the Gospel of fear. For God has given us the spirit of fear. Volume 3 drives this nail in with a hammer repeatedly, over and over and over and over.

Volume 3 teaches us that if God did not want us to have the Holy Spirit of fear, then God would never have mentioned hell in the first place. For otherwise, knowing about hell would not matter with regards the gospel.

Volume 3 is honest about this, and its adherents are honest about it; Volume 2 and its adherents, not so much.

It's why so many people in the early church, and later Muhammad, rejected Paul. He taught that the law could not save and never talked about hell; to him, condemnation was death, and salvation was eternal life and resurrection from the dead; but we'll continue to disregard this.

For we walk by fear, and not by sight. Our salvation is salvation from God's self-designed place of eternal pain and torment. God saw it and saw that it was good - one of God's greatest creative ideas; the only possible solution to God's problems.

We must conform and change because we are to fear God's loving hatred, God's merciful aggression. We must never be honest with ourselves, we must never investigate ourselves or try to understand why we do the things we do.

We must disregard our pain, disregard our history, disregard our constant abuse, even disregard the complete absence of God when God is so very much needed. None of that matters. We are to worry and we are to conform to the glory of God's gospel of fear.

Sometimes I put penises in my mouth, and now God is enraged with me. Though I didn't exist in this universe prior to 44 years ago, God is burning with an eternal fury because I keep putting penises in my mouth. This is why the gospel of fear is good for me.

Because of this gospel, I can choose to not put penises in my mouth; I can consider these things because I otherwise would think nothing of them (I would be oblivious to any wrongdoing).

Treating people in ways I'd never want them to treat me, I understand is not good, but licking very specific engorged blood-filled body parts, I would have never considered. It makes me envy those dick sucking bonobos.

Why can't I put them in my mouth exactly? It doesn't matter. God gave a thumbs-down on humans sucking dick and now I am at risk of roasting in the flames forever and ever and ever.

But I am saved through God's grace, and my works of not putting penises in my mouth and forcing myself to entertain the ideas of doing things that I very much hate (monogamy, marriage, monogamous relationship with a woman).

Because of God's Gospel, I walk by fear and refrain from putting penises in my mouth and I get angry with myself and condemn myself whenever the thought pops in my head of me planting my face in between some man's thighs... But sometimes I backslide.

Seek ye first the Tyranny of Heaven, and all these fears will be added to you. You will know what to hate about yourself, because God hated them first. And we need this Kingdom on earth, to save this world from the hell which God delighted in creating.

God knows us better than we know ourselves. Is hell the absolute worst imaginable place that one could end up? Well, yes.

And since God knows us better than we know ourselves, then couldn't God move us and change things so that a person who's only existed for 44 years could never possibly do anything that would make them end up in such a place like hell? Well, yes.

But God is Love in feeling only, not so much in action or deed. The gospel given to us is a gospel of fear, and our God has given us the spirit of fear. There is no need to think about these things or reason with them; just do as you're told.

Truth, honesty, and integrity serve no purpose on the road to heaven. As says God, ministers, prophets, parents, armed persons, slave masters, and government officials - do as you're told, don't think, and all will be well.

Tweets - November 15th

You struggle to lean on what you know is true because the truth condemns you. So you tell your awful destructive lies because you are so deeply afraid and alone. Help from God is a wish and a dream. Your unaltered behaviors are your evidence that God is not with you.

Just to be clear, forcing and convincing yourself to be who you are not is not indicative of behavioral changes. All it'll take is for some extreme situation to bring "you" back to the surface. Your actions are only indicative that you judge and condemn yourself.

Tweets - October 13th - What is Needed

A few times over the last few months and years, spacecrafts became luminous in my peripheral. Sometimes it was a rebuke, sometimes it was an affirmation. It would catch my attention and I would turn my head in that direction to look.

A few weeks ago, maybe the last time I saw any spacecrafts until tonight, I mentioned that there was no point in speculating what this meant, I would just have to wait and see.

It turns out I needed a bit of help. I was speaking to heaven about injustice. 22 spacecrafts flew, one after the other. This is the way they flew: The first spacecraft caught my attention in my right eye, causing me to look. It was flying above the trees. Another spacecraft came up from behind the trees - right to left - and flew. The first spacecraft dimmed out of sight, then the next dimmed out in the same location of the first. Then another spacecraft flew and did the same. And another and another spacecraft flew, one after the other, until they reached the same general location where they dimmed out of sight. About halfway or 3/4 of the way through the 22 spacecrafts, they began to dim closer to the trees, until the point that they flew behind the trees and didn't reappear.

I was amazed, but I didn't understand. Remembering justice and what happened to me a few years ago, I mentioned to heaven that if I didn't have that chest pain I would not have known (FOR CERTAIN) I was committing injustice, and a spacecraft became luminous in my right peripheral, then became brilliantly luminous. And then I began to understand.

It is something that heaven needs for me to remember and understand completely: God is faithful. I will always be given what I need when I need it (to the glory of my flesh, the glory of our race, the Garden, and the glory of God). What is needed won't always be prominent, it won't always be right in front of my face, I won't always see it right away, I won't always understand. How beautiful. How beautiful I won't ever have to go searching for it - it will always be given.

I know that there is more to this - something just out of grasp - I even questioned heaven, "What do I do with this information?". I know for certain that because of God's faithfulness, I will have no reason to boast in myself for finding or doing anything.

I thought about posting all this to Twitter/X and a spacecraft became luminous front-and-center and became brilliantly luminous in response.

Hindsight... even when I feel like something is "just out of grasp", I will have what I need as I need it (according to what is good). And when I say "I", I am talking about the entire Garden of God.

My foolishness is being made greater than the wisdom of a thousand elders. I am so thankful that heaven knows me better than I know myself.

Tweets - September 16th - Praise

What is a rebuke other than encouragement to pursue what is honest and good? The more necessary the encouragement, the more severe the rebuke.

Last night I experienced a subtle rebuke, it was noticeably subtle and persistent - I didn't immediately grasp it. I was thinking about the time I complemented someone on how good they made the coffee - and the subtle rebukes began. Also, 2 or 3 of the "watching" angels showed up as well as some angels of affirmation. I was rebuked 2 or 3 more times, and then I understood the message.

The issue I am having is self-praise, and more specifically (after some talks with heaven tonight) the need to be praised. It is something I recognized a little while back - envisioning myself as a fantastic singer or piano player (not receiving rounds of applause, but admiring myself as such). I recognized it but didn't put much thought into it - not until heaven brought it to my attention so that I'd make it an important matter to myself.

I've come to understand that all these things are rooted in the pain and trauma I've experienced. As long as I am being praised, I am not being judged and condemned. It is very interesting to me. As long as I am being praised, I am not being made to feel ashamed. And to heap ointment on these open wounds, I praise myself.

This may seem like a small thing, but it really displays my scabs, my bruises, and my scars. Heaven insists that I be very aware of them.

Heaven rebuked me once tonight when I became concerned about how to deal with this issue of needing to praised. (Thinking deeply, "Now what do I need to do? Or is God taking care of it?")

How quickly I forgot that I only need to recognize these things, understand them as best I can, pursue justice (pursuing what is so very good and gentle and kind and true and joyfully human), and walk by the faith given to me.

Tweets - September 3rd - In Conclusion

When you've been moved forward, you can look back and see how you've been pushed forward.

I now understand that the individual dimly-lit spacecrafts that have been flying above these last few months have been acknowledging that they are watching me, monitoring my actions, and that I still need their attention and guidance in current matters.

2 nights ago I was thinking about the resurrection, and I was concerned about those people walking by faith and understanding the love of God (as faith, for me, has come because of the time spent with God and the wisdom and kindness and honesty of God).

A spacecraft appeared and sparked/flickered - but not brightly (as I was not being sternly rebuked) - but they wanted to alert me that I was getting off track. I then understood that I don't need to be anxious about anything, not even the Garden of God.

For the last few nights, including last night and tonight, I saw none of the "watching" angels, so I suppose this period and lesson has come to its conclusion, as heaven is satisfied in my position, and I have been entrusted to continue to walk on my own

(in this endeavor of being a human being who has regarded their humanity, acknowledging each emotion, all while pursuing what is honest and good; who sees that God is love, always receiving exactly what is needed; who leans on that love, which is God in fullness).

Tweets - August 27th - Pursue Justice

If you don't want your nation burned to the ground or weighed down by the pressure of heaven, then pursue justice. When you watch the waters rise and wash away the homes of those living in coastal regions, remember your deeds as a nation of the unjust cause, and pursue justice.

Depending on the severity and the consequence of the injustice, sometimes justice means you have to give away everything that you have to those who are being destroyed; sometimes justice means that you have to heal others at the cost of your own peace and comfort.

But in pursuing justice, you are on the path of forgiveness, and you might be permitted to live - you and your children. If you are not on the path of forgiveness, then you are on the path of destruction, and all that you cling to will be taken away from you by fire and by force.

Tweets - August 25th - Planting Flowers

Planting flowers in a garden. A few nights ago I was given both an affirmation and a rebuke in the same message. I was rebuked because I was not acknowledging my feelings.

I was talking about planting flowers, or maybe I was singing a song - I don't remember, but then I received both the affirmation and the rebuke by the bright angel.

A few weeks ago I met these 20/21 year old LGBTQ+ youth, and I was so amazed. It felt like a blessing sitting with them. They were quirky and gentle and themselves.

They shared their experiences, but nothing was too dark. I remember one said, "I just thought everyone liked who they like, but then I found out, 'NO, it's not that way'". They were like angels whose wings had not yet been clipped.

When I was their age, my wings had long been clipped, plucked, beaten, snapped, bloodied, and broken. I was nothing like those youth, and I perceive the wisdom in Christ's call on my life.

It seems we won't always have to wait for seeds to sprout. They were like flowers who were waiting to be planted in a Garden, whose soil is enriched, watered, and tended by its God.

Tweets - August 21st - God Wants

3 spacecrafts flew overhead at the same time in a triangular formation (12 , 6, and 9 o'clock positions from my point of view). This occurrence happened twice, on 2 different nights.

The spacecraft at 12 o'clock slowly became bright and slowly dimmed, then the spacecraft at 6 o'clock slowly became bright (with the same timing and luminous intensity) and slowly dimmed while the spacecraft at 9 o'clock dimmed out of sight.

There is nothing that happens to us that God does not want to happen to us. Saying, "God allows" is an incomplete statement. It is always true that "God wants", and in some cases, "God is doing".

Though this certainly does not mean that God delights in all things, but it does mean that sometimes gold (in its stubborn refusal to repent through loving justice) has to be burned and submerged so it can be refined and transformed into something valuable and eternal.

The message of the 3 spacecrafts, in summary, is that God truly is Love. There is nothing that happens to us that God does not want to happen.

For those of us who walk with God, there is nothing to worry about; there is nothing to look toward and be anxious of; we don't have to worry about what we will say or have; we don't have to worry about what we will do; we don't have to fear what is unknown to us; we never need to plan a siege, or consider our defense, or setup a scheme.

We are wounded because God led us in the direction to be wounded. We are sick because God planned and gave us over to sickness. God's hand is on us and with us, and we are never required nor expected to be afraid.

I know, it sucks - but it only sucks for a moment in time, and the Garden will be better off for it, I promise (according to God's promise). 

(Regarding all these things, I'm assuming we are not pursuing injustice, in which case we are simply receiving exactly what we deserve.)

We are who we are - we do not need to lie to ourselves about ourselves and we never need to plan to be someone or something else.

Understand yourself; do good in spite of your brokenness, and don't seek to be "unbroken". God repairs what we cannot repair for the sake of the Garden and the Glory of God - you just be yourself and pursue what is both loving and just.

As for those who cannot walk with God, you know the portion God has given to you (though you don't accept it as such).

There is everything to fear; there are a thousand things to worry about; a million things to consider - what will you say, what will you do, what will you eat, what will you wear, where is your help?!

Dig deep in yourself for your hope; prepare your defense; go get as many guns as you can; fortify your buildings with sand and steel; drape bedsheets over your wives and daughters; get ready to fight fight fight!!!

God is giving you exactly what God wants you to have; and fear, sadness, and anger have been made your portion. It is how God is saving you and the Earth.

There's that conflict in me where I see someone I've loved a long time in such awful pain, and I am both sad and joyful - sad because of their brokenness, and joyful because God is saving their life through destruction.

But I would so much rather you walk with God so that you can be saved without being destroyed; so I might receive double joy (in my selfish desire).

Tweets - July 26th - Oil

I recently made a new batch of oil for my hair and skin. I use avocado oil as a base, and add tea tree oil, jojoba oil, peppermint oil, orange oil, and vitamin E oil. I have it in my oil spray bottle.

The old oil has gone stale and now smells like old leather, and I didn't want put any in my hair - the old oil is in a separate container. So while sitting outside and thinking about the new oil and pouring some from the spray bottle into the old oil's container, I said, "I will dump out the old oil and pour in the new oil" and a spacecraft became luminous and brilliant beside the trees, but only for a few seconds before going dim. The folks on that airplane flying in its direction must've gotten an eye-full.

As for the meaning of oil in the message, I'm not certain. It sounds very Jewish - which makes sense as it was a Jewish Christ who called me. I'll take a look through their scriptures, but from what I remember, oil represents blessing and anointing.

Am I being told that I'll be able to remove from people what they consider a blessing (an old stale thing worthy of a dumpster) and add a true Blessing to them?

Tweets - July 26th - No Forgiveness without Justice

There is no forgiveness without justice. Any nation, state, kingdom, or person who lets injustice go on without being addressed has not been forgiven. Injustice is not permitted forever, not in this universe.

You won't get to sweep your bad behaviors under the rug forever. You will either be forgiven because you pursue justice, or you will be forgiven because you dropped dead.

ANY nation, state, kingdom, or person who does not pursue justice will be wiped off the face of this planet. No one is exempt.

God will have a Garden in the Earth. And that Garden is Justice and Mercy and Empathy and Decency. In God's faithfulness and trustworthiness, that Garden is Peace and Gentleness.

Tweets - July 21st - No

When I ask for something more than once from God, then I am requesting of God to be what God is not. I am telling God that I find God's decisions unacceptable. This was understood by my current interpretation of the message I received from angels tonight.

I was thinking about healing, and I thought about the dermatitis that flares up on my face from time to time. I mentioned to heaven that I have done all the justice I know to do, and what I now require is God's justice.

A semi-bright spacecraft flew directly overhead, over my home, and it pulsed in and out, fading in and out every half second or so as it flew out into the distance. I was both amazed and concerned. I have never seen anything like it.

Makes sense. I remember a few months ago I mentioned to heaven, "Sometimes the word of God is 'No'", and heaven lit up. 4 or so spacecrafts became visible at the same time - all flying in different directions, one was very bright.

The amazing part is that, even though God has been telling me "No", I still have every desire to pursue justice and walk by faith. Doing justice is what is good for me, it is what's good for the Garden as it uplifts us both.

As for faith, well, I've been permitted to know God for nearly 20 years. I know that "No" is temporary when it comes to injustice in this universe (whether it be temporary for a minute, or a day, or 20 years, or 50 years, or 2000 years - God will say "Yes" to justice because it is who God is).

As for the "why" of "No". Well, we all belong to God, and not the other way around. We don't know all of God's plans and purposes. Hindsight is 20/20 foresight, and sometimes a thing just has to happen before we can plainly see why.

Tweets - July 19th - Raised Up

Part of our salvation is our wounds being healed - healed physically, healed mentally - and then remaining healed. When the dead are raised up, they are raised whole and healed, and they will remain so.

In order for them to remain healed, which will also occur when Christ returns, love must be everywhere - it must be ubiquitous - it must be ever-present. Heaven agreed tonight by shining a light very bright. Christ will not be returning to hell.

The Earth, though in a current state of deep darkness, will become a bright beacon in this universe. This does not mean that everyone will be a flower in God's Garden, but there will be a Garden for Christ to return to, and the weeds will be plucked.

This does not mean that those raised up will be "perfect human beings", but they will always be moving forward towards honesty and human decency (the very thing that God requires of us right now).

Faith in this place is built on hope. On the hope that God is kind; on the hope that God is good; on the hope that God is love; on the hope that God hates what you hate. If your foundation (hope) is removed, then your faith is destroyed.

Your faith is in your hands. Your faith is entirely predicated on YOU and your feelings and your deepest hopes - and, as a result, your only honest never-failing prophecy has been "death" (regardless of religious belief).

But when your faith is built solidly on God's Power, then you will see PLAINLY all the things you have been lacking all along - the limitations, the lack of foresight, the lack of depth, the lack of height - and your honest word will be "God is Good" (not because you hope so, not because you read it in a book, but because the veil had been removed from your eyes by God's Mercy and Power and you have seen God).

Tweets - July 2nd - Faithfulness

Tonight I was thinking about life and death and the resurrection, and I said that we are part of this universe, a part of God - and as I was speaking, a dimly lit spacecraft flew and slowly became brighter and brighter, then shone exceedingly bright. Didn't expect it.

But I was also curious of the response. Then another spacecraft flew, but it flew slowly - and I interpreted this to mean to slow down and take my time to understand.

I am just so thankful to God. I can lean on God's faithfulness, God's trustworthiness, and I am permitted to walk according to that faith. I can do good and never need be concerned nor anxious about the outcome.

I can do good, doing justice, and I never need to think ahead. How beautiful and amazing the Love of the Living God.

Tweets - June 14th - Twice

Sometimes I don't notice a thing until it happens twice. A low flying meteor flew overhead tonight with a long streak tail. It brought back to memory a video where a meteorite landed in someone's yard and produced a thump.

A spacecraft then appeared and became very bright. What I noticed is that both tonight and last night the spacecraft appeared in my peripheral vision so I had to turn my head and my gaze to the right when it became bright.

I recall this happening before, but I can't tie it to any specific event to truly understand what it means. I also don't want to speculate. So with these events - orcas and meteors - I'm able to pay attention, and then wait and see.

Tweets - June 13th - Orcas

Tonight while outside, I thought about those orcas attacking the rudders of boats off the coast of Spain, and I said it was interesting. A spacecraft then flew and became very bright.

I'm unsure if angels were only in agreement with me that it is interesting that this is occurring, or if they are saying God is involved. So I began thinking - if it is God, why attack boats? Boats ship things and people.

So I've considered God's sovereignty. Maybe this is a lesson to black Americans who refuse to believe God. If God wanted, then God could have, at any time, brought about an end to the slave trade and yet refused to do so.

God would send orcas to snatch the rudders off of European fishing boats and yachts and turn a blind eye to boats carrying away Africans to be enslaved. What a brutally honest message. God's only word to black American's these last 400+ years has been, "NO!!!"

But I don't want to jump the gun. If these orca attacks are to be interpreted as an act of God in this way, and not simply a set of behavior patterns learned by a single whale, then I would expect these attacks to show up off the coast of west Africa all the way to the Americas.

Tweets - June 7th - Jesus killed Moses

Not long after the universe was created, when Jesus came down from heaven and gave the law to Moses, he said to Moses, "This book is my holy word. The words herein are worth more to me than your life. Its pages are more valuable to me than a billion human lives. If you break the laws written in this book, I will give your spirit nerve endings and burn you forever and ever and ever - it will be your own fault and not mine, your creator. But if you interpret these words perfectly and only in the way I expect you to interpret them, perform every law - except those I arbitrarily annul, and love me because I command you to do so, and beg me for forgiveness when you don't - then I will remove your dick and strip away most of which makes you human and allow you to live eternally in peace after you drop dead."

Moses looked at Jesus and said, "Ummm... OK. I guess I have no real choice or say in any case."

Jesus said to Moses, "I love you very much, and I want you to have a personal relationship with me. Though all of my decisions will be mysterious to you, you must figure out how to get close with me. Though you can never know more about me than what is written in my holy word, I need you to know me on a deep intimate level. If I don't know you intimately, then you will have hot coal shoved up your ass forever, and it will be entirely your fault."

Moses said to Jesus, "If you do love us, why do you bind us to this law? Why can't we have the same liberty as all other living things?"

Jesus said to Moses, "I did not make man for the law, but the law for man."

Moses said to Jesus, "But that isn't true."

Jesus shouted, "EXCUSE ME!!!"

Moses said, "Your holy law condemns people to death for picking grapes on the sabbath. And it commands us to stone disobedient children to death and to kill people who are intimate with the same sex. Does this not mean that we are made for the law? The law does not bend for us lest it not be perfect; therefore, we must bend for it. So, you are excused - unless your law is not perfect."

Jesus's eyes turned deep red in anger and veins began forming on his golden forehead.

Moses said to Jesus, "Your holy law says that we must love our neighbors as ourselves, but how is this possible if we cannot value ourselves more than a book? What love can I possibly offer my neighbor if my own life is worth less than the paper your holy words are written on? Can I toss your book into the fire without you getting pissed? You said that we are more valuable than the lilies of the field. Does this only apply to those lilies whose leaf fibers are not made into scripture?"

Moses said, "When we value the word of law and scripture more than we value human lives, then you - all-knowing Lord - should expect all manner of vile judgment to come from our lips and violent condemnation from our fists and weapons. Our own mothers will be turned into authors of their children's shame because of such harmful convictions."

Moses said, "Love is deed. Loving others as you love yourself is a steep and honest expectation. But this is a pointless endeavor if we must value the life of a trans person, a gay person, a sabbath breaker, a black person, a white person, a Hebrew, a Greek, or a slave as having less worth than that of your book."

Jesus killed Moses and left his body to rot on the field. Moses never entered the promise land and he burns in hell to this very day. Jesus gave his holy word to Joshua as he warred his way into Canaan at Jesus's command.

Tweets - May 13th - I have not known myself

I have not known myself. I come to conclusions and then deliver them as truths. The issue is not the conclusions, but calling such things "truths". Heaven has voiced serious complaints against me because of this.

One of these conclusions I've recently jumped to is "walking by faith". I've been convincing myself to look past all of the years of violence and pain and abuse that has happened to me, and telling myself that I didn't need to be afraid and angry and sad because I can instead be "faithful". I even remember asking myself, "how am I being myself if I look past these things and 'walk by faith'".

I'm not talking about the simple act of trusting God, but rather the act of ignoring who and what I am.

I first noticed that there was an issue when I made the decision to "walk by faith and forget the history of Kelvin", and multiple spacecrafts began flying overhead with noticeably dim lights. I knew the consistently dim lights meant something, but I didn't know what.

Then came the quick flashes. I mentioned some time ago that those quick flashes are distractions - and that appears to be true in part - but it is now evident that those are also rebukes. This didn't really become clear until a few nights ago when a spacecraft flew overhead and flashed and flickered its lights in a way I hadn't seen before. Then I wondered if it was a rebuke, and a spacecraft flew overhead very fast in confirmation.

But what really sprang me into action was last night when a peach-colored spacecraft flew overhead. Nothing felt good about seeing that - but it forced me to ground myself and get to the bottom of the issues I was having. Based on the responses I had received over the last few days, I understood that I was having an emotional issue, an honesty issue, and a humanity issue. But seeing that peach-colored spacecraft forced me to think deeply about these things until I began to understand what was wrong. These things were on my mind when I fell asleep last night, and those same things were on my mind the second I awoke this morning. And I'm so thankful that such measures were taken.

We are all human. We are all right here in this same world all together. The tragedies of this world are because of the insistence of God's rejection. We are all birthed from sad and angry mothers, have sad and angry friends, and have sad and angry people who rule themselves over us. They are sad and angry because they live in a world that is the physical embodiment of "GOD'S REJECTION", though they may never see it this way.

The only thing that separates me from you is that I am under Grace and you are not. I don't say this to be bold or boastful, but it is true, and it might help with whatever understanding one can gather from hearing a stranger talk about seeing a peach-colored UFO.

A world that is rejected by God produces a people who are broken and sad and filled with pain. Being under Grace does not change this fact; being under Grace has no affect nor impact on our humanity. I don't even know who I am without the remembrance of this pain, the attachment of this pain. I am not free from it, and the only reason I am not free from it is because God has not delivered me from it. And I cannot free myself, at least not that I have ever known. But when God does deliver me, who will I be? I suppose a human male walking naked in a Garden, surrounded by loving gazes and gentle deeds.

I can attest to the fact that being under Grace does sprout up periods of joy. I may be sad and frustrated at times, embarrassed and uncomfortable at times, but I am no longer broken and destroyed. I am given the time and space and liberty to understand God and the Garden of God. I have no desire to drink myself into oblivion or take copious amounts of drugs to hide from this reality. Though alone, I am healed, I am always being healed, I am blessed, and I am being blessed - even my softening flesh sings the Glory of the Living God.

Being under Grace does not change our nature, but what I have found is that it gives me a reason to always be a decent human being, in spite of where I come from. I am to understand my discomforts, understand my sadness and my frustrations, understand why I am the way I am - why I feel the way I feel in that moment, step back and be a decent human being, doing justice.

God's faithfulness has taught me that God is unquestionably and unwaveringly God. Salvation comes by way of God's faithfulness. And my experience has taught me that I only need to do justice and wait for God. But even in this, I do not always do good; I do not always see myself.

I only ever need to be myself - to know myself, to accept myself, and to be myself - and then be a decent human being in spite of the pain, the embarrassment, the sadness, the terror, this discomfort, the frustration, and the anger. I am a human being and I am allowed to be a human being.

I am thankful to heaven for confirming tonight and for lifting my spirits by shining a light as bright as Venus and flying across the sky, not dimming for a second.

Tweets - April 14th - Burn their asses

When I was around 15 years old (1994/95), I was in church one Sunday with my mother, grandmother, and some of my grandmother's sisters, and a guest prophet named Todd Hall came to visit and preach. I'm not sure if I'd ever seen a prophet before, but I was intrigued. 

He proclaimed, "In the year 2000, all the homosexuals in the world are going to be burned alive in fire. God is going to burn them up!" The church cheered and shouted and celebrated, "Praise God!", "Praise the Lord!!", "Hallelujah!!!". Some "spoke in tongues", and others "went in the spirit" in demonstration of the worthwhile power of God in the Church.

Wouldn't that just be lovely? If God finally took his thumb out of his ass and did something like burn up all the fags, setting them all ablaze for all the world to witness, then the Bride of Jesus Christ could finally rest. Easy, peasy, done.

There would be no more gay marriages, no need for legislation changes, no need for all the arguing and fighting and protesting, no need for the constant violence against openly trans and gay folks, no need to burn books or shut down libraries, no need to protect children from the dancing and singing drag queens. Wouldn't it be lovely?

Please, please, Jesus, please set their asses on fire! It's an easy fix problem. Even Prophet Todd understood that it was an easy fix problem. 2000 years of fags ravaging the earth, sucking each other off - burn them up Lord!! Why wait for hell tomorrow what could be done today?!

But here we are, 23 years later. 23 years waiting for God to do what God said he would do. For 2,023 years, God could have slid his thumb out of his ass and done anything about the fag problem - anything at all. Prophet after prophet after prophet have been speaking and shouting and proclaiming, and still not a peep from God - no help at all. Not a single fag was burned alive by God - not even one! How shameful of God. I guess that means it's now a prophet's problem and a prophet's job to take matters into his own hands: "Let's rile up the masses!", "We are the power of God now!" (says his heart and his deeds, not his mouth).

Could you imagine someone like Isaiah or Micah being so impatient with God, so used to God doing absolutely nothing, that they took up the sword and started killing Israelites themselves? "Israel will be plowed like a field", said Micah. "If God doesn't plow it then I will do the plowing myself and convince the powers that be to help me do it", said American prophets.

What is a Bride who can't lean on the help of her husband, but turns to the help of so many other men; so many other powerful men? What is a Bride who thinks about her husband and says, "He will never help me, so I will get in bed with whatever rich and powerful man that will help me"? Such a Bride would be called an Adulterous Whore. The Whore of Jesus Christ.

But in reality, she had no opportunity to become an adulterous whore. Yes, she sucks off whomever promises to give her whatever she asks for, but an adulterous whore requires one to be married. Christ divorced her long ago, and long gave up the idea of ever coming back for her. She has no lover. She doesn't even love herself. She loves her family for the most part - but there is no equal love to be found within her. She has long since forgotten Christ, what he sounded like, what he acted like. So she makes things up about him, all kinds of lies, and has been doing so from the very beginning. Just look at her scriptures: "God gave them over to degrading passions; for their women exchanged natural relations for that which is contrary to nature, and likewise the men, too, abandoned natural relations with women and burned in their desire toward one another, males with males committing shameful acts and receiving in their own persons the due penalty of their error."

She says whatever she wants about him because she can. She has always been ashamed of him - ashamed of his baptism - ashamed of his repentance - ashamed of his kindness - ashamed of him being nonjudgmental - ashamed of his partying and drinking - ashamed of his law breaking. She never wanted him for who he is. So she was long rejected by both Christ and God. And if God is the business of sending folks to hell for sucking dick, then we can be certain that God will send her there first since she has been sucking dick for 2000 years, and the longest a fag sucks dick is for what, 60 years?

Tweets - April 11th - Bitcoin Offense

Regarding NY Times Post: https://www.nytimes.com/2023/04/09/business/bitcoin-mining-electricity-pollution.html?smtyp=cur&smid=tw-nytimes

I found this very offensive - offended by the idea of propping up the fossil fuel industry for a few bitcoin miners, and offended by the lack of justice and care.

So I said to God that these people do not love the world, they do not care for the world. So I asked God for the beginning of the Garden, the path of the Garden, so that that they might do justice in the Earth, and I asked God to send 130 degree heat to Texas.

I know that there are already plans in place, and I'm curious to see exactly what God will do. I know that I can be naive, and that I lack both the nuance and the foresight to truly understand what I've asked for.

But this never seemed to matter to God, who has always met me right where I am - never forcing me to be anywhere I don't want to be - always moving me forward. To me, this was an easy ask - though not straightforward, so I rely on God's understanding and judgment.

Tweets - April 4th - Bat Kol

Response to Brent's tweet: https://twitter.com/bkherbert99/status/1643206689225596928

Did you know that these roars occurred so frequently in Israel in the first century that the Jews named the event. They called it, "Bat Kol", which means "Daughter of the voice".

I came across this info maybe a decade ago, reading on something in the talmud (I don't remember what I was looking for), and this "Bat Kol" caught my attention.

I haven't heard those roars since I lived in Beltsville, maybe 2007 or 2008. I likened it to standing under a rocket while it was taking off, because, besides the noise, you could feel the sound penetrate your bones. So I would say that even the deaf could hear God roar.

Heaven has had a very heuristic approach in the way that they instruct. We watch, we experience, we mess up, we experience, we mess up, we learn.

No one has ever commanded me to do anything. If that were the case, someone could have spared me from the mild food poisoning a few weeks ago by commanding me not to eat that sandwich that was sitting out in the sun for hours. We learn.

Besides the impact on our liberty as human beings, it's also quite risky for God or heaven to deliver commands - especially with all the lying devils on the loose and their eager prophets.

"It's OK for God to command us to do good." But we see what happens in this world when people's definition of "good" becomes objective and non-negotiable.

When I was sternly rebuked last summer, it caused me to examine myself over and over. But no one ever told me to do anything - not even in these last nearly 20 years. They have built in me the Garden of God through power and liberty.

If God is going to be so pissed that God roars and shakes the Earth, I find it difficult to think that it's because you haven't been speaking to Christians and their bad-mouthed prophets (who have been ignoring you for 30 years).

If anything, I find it more likely that God would roar because of the violence of those people and because someone like you needed to even speak to them in the first place.

But it does appear you associated your guilt of not speaking with the sound from heaven. I think that if there is ever a sense of urgency from heaven, it will be plainly and completely clear. If what happened is clear to you, then it is clear.

I make no true claim of knowing anything other than what I experience and what I witness. (This is not to discourage you - even if it were possible - from being honest with a dishonest people.)

As for me, I may join you in your pursuit of being honest with them, but I won't fight with them. And if they want to fight, I will be quiet, lie down, and let them have their punches and kicks.

I intend to go back to my roots and give people exactly what they ask for: You want rain? You will have rain. I want them to understand God as I understand God, even more clearly (assuming that what I want matters).

Tweets - March 22nd - Faith and Truth

If it isn't the intense anger in this place, it's the fear - but usually a mix of both to the destruction of the whole world. There is no possibility of faithfulness here (at the moment). The dark is just too dark. The darkness is so deep that it absorbs every ray of light.

These people claim they are faithful and that God is with them, but their faithlessness is plain to me, and God treats them like overgrown weeds in a lawn: mowed over, plucked up, or poisoned - all leading to death.

But one thing I know for sure is that darkness belongs to God just as much as light, and God will be glorified in darkness and through darkness, and in light and through light - to the salvation of all flesh, of all generations.

To add to the truthfulness of this, I remember heaven clearly saying to me, "You can show them", accompanied by an extremely bright light of a spacecraft.

As one of those psalmists said: "You have encircled me. If I say, 'Surely the darkness will overwhelm me, and the light around me will be night,' even darkness is not dark to You, and the night is as bright as the day. Darkness and light are alike to You." ~ Psalm 139

By faith, I've come to the conclusion that I will just be honest with people. Earlier this month, I said to heaven, "The Garden of God is not worrying about what you'll think, or what you'll do, or what you'll say." Angels agreed by becoming luminous and bright in response.

I've been spending time with myself, understanding (as much as I have) why I am the way I am - why I feel what I feel when I feel it - why I do what I do when I do it - it continually leads me to lean further on God's faithfulness.

I'm not blind and I know that people find my behavior strange at times - I see it in their faces and in their reactions. At this point I'm partly used to it.

But truth-telling comes with woes in this world, even when said in love (as I prefer to not do a lot of "talking at" anyone, but rather conversing with).

I am not a bullshitter, and I don't have deep opinions of many things. So I am easily confused by a lot of words and concepts that mean many different things to people. We will not be debating.

I prefer to speak and think plainly and ask straightforward questions, so I have sometimes watched (in my own amazement) people become humbled and quiet when I've spoken to them (in conversation). I have also watched people never speak to me again, and avoid even looking my way.

Everything is important, everything is a big deal. There is truth in everything, in all of your experiences. Do not hide from it.

What I have come to understand is that if I do not view you as my equal, then there can never be complete honesty. If I am beneath you, then I cannot be completely honest with you. If I am above you, then I cannot be completely honest with you or myself.

Many parents and leaders in this world have made themselves authoritarian figures - and there are other ways to lead.

I'm set on no longer getting tense and tight-lipped when people ask me questions that would make one uncomfortable in my shoes. My rest is God's faithfulness.

My hope is to see the Garden of God sprout up in this generation, right under my feet. This Garden is my community, my community of faithful lovers, my community of loving care and upbuilding, my community of those who pursue justice at every turn.

Tweets - February 16th - Jesus loves you

https://twitter.com/davenewworld_2/status/1626196077501202435

Yes, sending someone to shout "Jesus loves you!!!!!" in my face while I'm eating was the absolute best idea that God could come up with. For God to simply show me deep, tender, powerful, faithful, and compassionate love was simply out of the question.

No, love is sending someone to shout in my face because love is ultimately nothing more than not sending me to hell for a billion-billion-billion years and giving me some singular, sole version of heaven that doesn't align with my character - and certainly not my sexuality.

(I'm assuming, of course, I won't be turned into a real-life Ken doll having nothing more than a bump where my dick should be.)

You know, none of us asked to be here. None of us were given any options whatsoever before we were born. None of us were shown life beforehand and the ways of God beforehand.

Nothing was presented to us beforehand regarding heaven and hell that we might make an informed decision between an eternity in heaven and an eternity in hell - allowing us the option to opt out of human life if we didn't want to take the risk.

"Upon my preliminary evaluation, dear Lord, I think I'll pass. I'd rather be a dog or just not exist."

But the way it's told, not only are we forced into this existence, but we are forced to either comply with unreasonable commands from God or be forced to endure a trillion-trillion years of tormenting fire -- and this is what is said to be the love of God, the only option of God, the perfect plan of God, the best and brightest idea that God could come up with.

"Lord, what if I just want to be human? Can I commune and make love however I want? Can I live and decline prayers and penance and worship and unprovable baseless claims in exchange for the liberty you give ALL other life in this world - and not be tossed into the fire?". 

"Absolutely fucking not!", saith the Lord.

No option was presented to us - and we certainly can't opt out after we're born - and your momma can't opt out for you after you're conceived - otherwise you (or your momma) risk a trillion-trillion years of tormenting fire.

If God wants a fruit-bearing peach tree planted in the middle of a dry desert, God does not need to instruct you or anyone else to replenish the soil, plant a seedling, haul truckloads of water, and setup a massive solar powered AC unit to maintain appropriate outdoor temps.

God has an entire universe at God's disposal and is able to ensure that not only will there be a peach tree planted in the middle of dry desert, but that it will prosper and bear fruit. God has never needed your assistance to do God's work.

With regard to God, the only acceptable thing you need be concerned with at the moment is to walk according to the faith given to you, be HONEST, and be a witness (sharing plainly what you have seen God do and what you see God doing - both the wonderful and the awful).

Tweets - January 31st - Repentance

I began writing this on Jan 20, and debated posting until I had results:

If you are ever in conversation with angels, and they do the quick flash thing, it's their way of distracting your line of thinking. The brighter the flash, the more important the distraction it seems.

For instance, a few years ago when I was in the middle of insulting myself - a very quick very bright flash came. "There are just more important things to be concerned with."

Of course, it doesn't mean you HAVE to change your course of thinking, but I would advise you to accept the wisdom - especially if you can be certain it was angels speaking with you.

And you can be certain by continuing to think and continuing to have your discussions (with heaven/with God/with yourself); you'll end up where you need to be. This has been my experience over the years.

Tonight was no exception. I forgot what I was talking about before the flash came. It wasn't a very bright flash, but it was just bright enough to catch my attention.

But then I moved on to justice, and I later said, "You know, for me, justice has always been to stop doing what causes harm" and a spacecraft became luminous and bright and flew out from behind the leafless trees and flew overhead.

While outside, my eyebrows began itching. Earlier in the day I wondered (again) if the dermatitis on my skin is a matter of justice, or if it is a matter of waiting to be healed - God is glorified either way - and my faith is in the faithfulness of God.

I said to myself, "I wonder if it's something I'm eating". A spacecraft flew, but the response was a bit inconclusive to me. And I said, "This has been going on since my 20s. What new thing did I begin in my 20s??"

I was puzzled - because my diet was the same from childhood up until that point - only except it wasn't.

In my early 20s I dieted because of historical pain and shame and humiliation, and a low-carb diet was my diet of choice.

Doing low-carb, I took a liking to sucralose (the sweetener found in Splenda) because it tasted the most like sugar, it didn't give me a headache (like aspartame), and I still lost weight.

I haven't eaten a low-carb diet in years, but I still consume sucralose as my sweetener of choice because I drink coffee in the morning and cold tea almost daily, and I use sucralose in both. I also use sucralose in cooking to balance dishes that require it.

Not much thought about it until tonight - and I say "not much thought" because I questioned it before, and searched for correlations between sucralose and dermatitis and found nothing - so I haven't thought about it.

So I will see how it goes, to see if sucralose is actually the culprit. My rest is God's faithfulness - and I am only able do justice when I know what is just.

Repentance is always justice, it is always deed; and if repentance is not performed through justice then it is not repentance and it remains unacceptable to God.

To the flowers in God's Garden, the community of faithful lovers: You are who you are. Why do you apologize so often? Can you apologize for being yourself?

It is you who needs to change if you are to effectively change the behavioral patterns you know are harmful (for which you so often apologize). Trying to force yourself to not be yourself is not a worthwhile long-term solution.

Know yourself, seek out the roots of what make you you so that you can begin to understand why you do the things you do. Lean on God's faithfulness in every moment, and walk.

My own goal, through God's Glory, is to never ever again walk according to the pain given me, but only to walk according to the faith given me.

It is becoming more and more apparent to me that I am to show people how to repent - "Sodom" especially - and maybe others.

God has hardened your heart, covered your eyes, and clogged your ears - so I know that you cannot hear right now.

My hope is not that you will repent (by watching me), but rather, in the hour God softens your heart, uncovers your eyes, and opens your ears - through peace, circumstance, or terror - you will know exactly how to repent.