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I was raised Christian (Pentecostal). One Sunday, when I was about 15 years old (in the year 1994 or 1995), I was in church with my mother, ...

Tuesday, December 29, 2020

Tweets - December 29th - Don't Know Anything

I am always given what I need, even what I need to make "good" decisions. My steps are planned for me; I only ever need to be faithful.

In the grand scheme of things, I don't know much of anything at all; but God does know. I never have to worry about anything and I can be faithful in everything, even when I unknowingly make foolish mistakes. ALL things belong to God. It is amazing to watch the unfixable fixed.

I can even be faithful in what I do not know, as I don't know much of anything at all. The mercy and power of God extend far beyond my understanding - it is both a sad and honest thing that this world, this race, cannot know God on this side of the grave.

They pick up their books, accepting foul and violent behaviors, encouraging these closed-off, isolated, individual, and loveless "communities", rejecting any understanding of God, from God, that might otherwise exist. They do themselves harm and this world an enormous disservice.

Saturday, December 19, 2020

Tweets - December 19th - Competition

Competition breeds anger, pride, aggression, and so many other forms of destruction. It's something you see over and over in the world. Children have been jealous and fought for the affection of their mothers; people have fought and warred over land, lovers, food and resources.

By competing, I want others to lose. Competition appears to be part of our wiring, part of what makes us human. God does nothing to strip anyone of their humanity, not now, not in this hell, not in the Garden, not ever.

Now understand, competition isn't part of the makeup - the social systems - of God's Garden (though there may be competition without any actual loss, such as in games like, "who can make whom cum first").

So then how will God deal with competition? The same way that God has always dealt with competition: remove the need to compete in the first place.

To the living who seek togetherness, teach justice and mercy, and make all things faithful and all things beautiful. To everyone else, remove all things beautiful, and hide all things resourceful.

No one competes for what they possess and cannot lose, nor do they compete for what is nonexistent or unattainable (shut up the rains, bind the hands of the strong man).

Competing, for anything, is something I will never need to do. I don't see any instance where God would glorify anyone in competition; so when you decide to compete, you're on your own.

God will be glorified in your loss, in your significant and devastating loss. God is glorified in everything; in all things, truth is provided.

Saturday, December 12, 2020

Tweets - December 12th - So Little

So much religion in this world, so very much religion, and so little God; you have what you've asked for. So little God, so very little God; you must always take matters into your own hands.

The only way their prophecies will be fulfilled is if they brute force fulfill them themselves. So very little God.

I looked for evil that wasn't prayed for, but I couldn't find it. I sought out the most vile man of this world who wasn't pleaded for, but he escaped me.

I see a world whose people are given over to the strongest arms. Yes, God tossed them and their children into the den of wealthy and ferocious lions, and they are slaves to the will of lions - so long as they live in a lion's world.

And now the might of man has been equated with the might of God; it is their religion and their philosophy and their economy. Meekness is absolute destruction.

Authoritarian lions, authoritarian Christ. It's what their hopes and dreams are made of. It is the beginning and end of each and every single solitary one of their prophecies.

Sunday, December 6, 2020

Tweets - December 6th - GOD HAS DONE

Tonight was the first night in a few months that I've seen those spacecrafts (for sure). I haven't felt the need to write much lately, but when angels show up, there are matters of importance.

"Therefore, I say to you, all things for which you pray and ask, believe that you have received them, and they will be granted to you." ~ Mark 11:24. This verse came to back to remembrance recently.

I remember thinking, some time ago, that this verse didn't make any sense - and I doubted that Christ said it. How do you believe you've received something, but know you actually haven't? Either you've received something or you haven't.

Does one try to convince themselves they've received something they haven't actually received? This is pentecostal "faith" 101, and is precisely the bullshit these prosperity preachers teach. Didn't make any sense to have come from Christ.

But chile, walking by faith changes everything. There had been a pause in my healing for a few weeks (by sight), and I remembered the first time I recall God healing me (which was the glands issue I mentioned a few months ago).

I was healed (temporarily) and then healed again (permanently) a year later. And I thought to myself, there really is no difference between God completing something and God having completed it.

Walking by faith, I don't need to see anything in the process of being completed nor do I need to see anything completed to know that God is bringing about an end.

They are one and the same (we are talking about the unwavering faithfulness and trustworthiness of God here). Then that verse in Mark came back to me.

I am being healed (walking by faith), and this is no different than already being healed (walking by faith) - I don't see either, but I will. The pause has ended. My ass is so smooth, I've been rubbing it in awe and thankfulness.

"GOD IS DOING" can therefore be further clarified and expounded as "GOD HAS DONE".

Friday, November 27, 2020

Tweets - November 27th - Liar

Should I should wait until January 21st, I thought. But if this is untrue now, it will all prove true later.

"Do not listen to the words of the prophets who are prophesying to you. They are leading you into futility; they tell a vision of their own imagination. They keep saying, 'The Lord has said, "You will have peace and prosperity"'; and as for everyone who walks in the stubbornness of his own heart, they say, 'No weapon formed against you shall prosper.' But who has stood in the council of Yahweh, that they should see and hear God's word?" ~ Jeremiah 23:16-18

You will never hear me quarreling with these prophets. God proves every man a liar, and does not require anyone's assistance. The nearsightedness of these prophets is astounding; but it's all they really have to work with.

The downside to proving people liars is that they have to care for what is true, otherwise the advantage is lost. These prophets refuse to believe they have lied to themselves or that they have been lied to by anyone else, so they'll cook up something for the church to devour - and the congregation will eat. I wonder if they'll even encourage their followers to play the blame game: "You didn't pray enough! The Lord needed you to fast!".

Kindling for God's fire.

But the times are coming when God says to a few, "You are a liar", and they will say to God, "I am a liar", and they will be healed right where they stand.


Context... Many evangelicals and prophets prophesied that Trump would be reelected (which is why I initially thought it best to wait to speak until after the president is sworn in on January 20th).

Thursday, November 26, 2020

Tweets - November 26th - Ecclesiastes 9

Ecclesiastes 9

For I have taken all this to my heart, even to examine it all, that righteous people, wise people, and their deeds are in the hand of God. People do not know whether it will be love or hatred; anything awaits them.

It is the same for all. There is one fate for the righteous and for the wicked; for the good, for the clean and the unclean; for the person who offers a sacrifice and for the one who does not sacrifice. As the good person is, so is the sinner; the one who swears an oath is just as the one who is afraid to swear an oath.

This is an evil in everything that is done under the sun, that there is one fate for everyone. Furthermore, the hearts of the sons of mankind are full of evil, and insanity is in their hearts throughout their lives. Afterward they go to the dead. For whoever is joined to all the living, there is hope; for better a live dog, than a dead lion. For the living know that they will die; but the dead do not know anything, nor do they have a reward any longer, for their memory is forgotten. Indeed their love, their hate, and their zeal have already perished, and they will no longer have a share in all that is done under the sun.

Go then, eat your bread in happiness, and drink your wine with a cheerful heart; for God has already approved your works. See that your clothes are white all the time, and that there is no lack of oil on your head. Enjoy life with the wife whom you love all the days of your futile life which He has given you under the sun, all the days of your futility; for this is your reward in life and in your work which you have labored under the sun.

Whatever your hand finds to do, do it with all your might; for there is no activity, planning, knowledge, or wisdom in the grave where you are going.

I find this a very honest take. Do all you can with all your might because time is short; fuck your wife today because tomorrow you may not see her - and though there may be a God, the only support you'll ever receive is your own personal limousine ride straight to the grave.

This type of honesty is lacking in this world.

It's interesting to me because so many cultures surrounded ancient Israel. At one point in time, Egypt heavily influenced Jewish culture - this is evident by the anhk displayed on the seal from King Hezekiah's signet ring.

But as often as Jewish folk hated and violently rejected their prophets, the Jewish prophets left quite an impression on them - this is in part evident by their lack of belief in an afterlife.

To the Jewish prophets, God is God of the living, and not the dead. To them, salvation is physical and not esoteric or mystical.

"For the Lord loves justice and does not abandon His godly ones; they are protected forever, but the descendants of the wicked will be eliminated. The righteous will inherit the land and dwell in it forever." ~ Psalm 37.

Psalm 37 is in stark contrast and contradiction with Ecclesiastes 9 - which was written by someone in godless despair - the only form of existence you know.

Saturday, November 7, 2020

Tweets - November 7th - God IS DOING

People do not have total trust and reliance on God. God has ensured this to be the case by the way that God treats them. It's why they must preach and convince and read the same bible passages over and over that say otherwise - because God says no such thing (through deed).

Faith is more than believing what God can do, or even believing what God will (eventually) do. In this case, we all have the same "faith" in billionaires as we do God - because of what they can do.

Faith is knowing and understanding that God IS DOING, even when you don't yet see. When you know that God IS DOING, then you know what will be done - you understand what will be completed.

In order to have faith, you must first know God, and you can only know God if God wants you to know God. So faith comes solely by the will of God, and not by your feelings, wants, beliefs or works (of hearing and understanding biblical texts and believing associated doctrines).

You must be honest with yourself about God in order to understand God. You can only faithfully trust God when God has given you reason and purpose to trust God.

Can you imagine the faith of Christ? 2000 years watching the lies, violence, injustices, and devastation of this world - but he does not walk by sight. He knows, and has known, that God IS DOING, even when his eyes only see this dark place.

Friday, November 6, 2020

Tweets - November 6th - Recognized

I felt a bit down earlier - and I don't say this to trigger emotions in anyone, but it's just a statement of fact. Grieving the world, mourning the world (mourning the living), it's part of my walk with God. Ups and downs, highs and lows.

I recognized earlier that both my sorrow and my joy belong to God. I did not have such sorrows before knowing God, neither did I have such joys. And if God wants sorrowful Kelvin, then that's what God will have (it won't lead to my destruction).

I also recognized it'll take a bit more than youthful skin to fully exchange my sorrow for joy - though the balance has certainly been tipped in the direction of joy these last few months, it still teeters to sorrow every once in a while.

There is nothing I experience that God doesn't want me to experience, it's how I'm able to understand God, myself, the Garden of God, and the world.

The same could be said for anyone really, but I accept the deeds of God honestly and truthfully, and not watered down, whitewashed, assumed, or filtered through the understanding of people who've withered up and died a very long time ago.

We are intertwined. There is no you without me, and there is no me without you. I am being saved (from destruction and decay), and I recognized earlier that because I am being saved, the world is also being saved; and that joy produced by faith through the salvation I am witnessing in my flesh can also be produced by faith in the salvation of the WHOLE world. Walk by faith, all the time.

I suppose if it is possible to love the world and not grieve the world (having the scale tipped in joy's favor for long periods of time), then faith in the salvation of the world would be the means.

Thursday, October 29, 2020

Tweets - October 29th - Advice

I was reading through Paul's letter to Philemon and recognized that he often gave unsolicited advice. There really isn't anything wrong with this until "advice" becomes a tool of judgment and control (you should be doing what I think you should be doing).

It looks like Onesimus was a slave of Philemon, who was a slave due to debt. They both received a little light from above, but Onesimus still had resentment toward Philemon and did something Philemon considered foul (perhaps Onesimus said, "fuck that debt" and ran off).

I do understand that soft feeling Paul had of wanting people he loved to get along, and Onesimus was on board, but Philemon was not (feeling cheated and walked over). So Philemon got a letter (which made its way into your scriptures).

"Having confidence in your obedience, I write to you, since I know that you will do even more than what I say." ~ verse 21. I would personally take strong offense to this part of the letter - but I am not Philemon.

When a person is sanctified by another person, giving unsolicited advice to the one who sanctifies you becomes dangerous; when revered, less so - but it can still be dangerous.

It's one of the reasons why you should never expect to receive unsolicited advice from Christ (you will be warned when you're approaching the edge of the deadly cliff - it is very rare - but if you insist on walking off the cliff, Christ will not stop you, oh believe you me!!).

None of these things are hidden, not for 2000 years. People generally have an idea of how they hate to be treated; and if they did not sanctify Paul, some of these letters would not be in their scriptures.

But when people are sanctified (prophets, pastors, popes, etc.), they're set in a place beyond reproach, and just the idea of human decency becomes a matter of opinion and debate, and it devolves into "morality". Turning the word of the sanctified into the literal word of God.

Morality justifies your maltreatment and the maltreatment of your neighbors - each and every time. What we require instead, is simple, plain-ole, childlike decency. If you have questions regarding human decency, find a newborn baby and ask them.

Tuesday, October 27, 2020

Tweets - October 27th

Yes indeed. God IS the author of our Faith; the source of our Trust. What a year this has been! Patiently and expectantly waiting for the Living God is such sound counsel to those who sit in God's shadow.

Retweet from May 6, 2019:

I was out earlier talking to God about how things have always been laid out for me. I can go and learn as often as I desire, but whenever God wants me to know and understand things, they are presented to me, laid out bare, like a table of open books, all turned to the right page.

There have been moments of ecstasy because of the liberty of God, who is enigmatic and faithful. I have these moments of ecstasy because of what is becoming, and not what is. I look at my face and I see only the arriving Garden of God, even though my reflection is horror.

I suppose if anyone can plant a flourishing Garden in the middle of the fiery hell we call, "the world", it would be God. They will roar out of anger, curse God, curse mercy, and claim that both land and labor belong to them. (This is one option.)

But God wants a Garden, even in the middle of hell. Whom will God welcome? 

The Earth is soon losing its ancient title: "A world without God". God will bend that which is malleable, and that which isn't will break and perish.

Monday, October 19, 2020

Tweets - October 19th - Seek until you find

Sometimes you just don't have enough information to come to a reasonable summation or conclusion. Seek until you find; you just might find what you weren't looking for (this has certainly been my experience).

The alternatives are to endlessly speculate (potentially coming to incorrect conclusions and producing lies), or to wait for some authority to give an answer (can you trust the source??? are you able to come to the same conclusion without this source?).

I am so glad that Christ has been silent when he knew silence was the appropriate response. He has refused to lord himself over me, even when I asked him to.

Monday, October 12, 2020

Tweets - October 12th - God's Honesty

We are where we need to be. If we were not, then we would not be here, but rather somewhere else. Human decency (or the lack thereof) is one of those crooked problems that only God can straighten out.

Why is human decency a problem for God? Because of fear, deep-rooted beliefs, and faithlessness, and all that they produce in man.

"For I am afraid that perhaps when I come I may find you to be not what I wish and may be found by you to be not what you wish; that perhaps there will be strife, jealousy, angry tempers, disputes, slanders, gossip, arrogance, disturbances; I am afraid that when I come again my God may humiliate me before you, and I may mourn over many of those who have sinned in the past and not repented of the impurity, immorality and sensuality which they have practiced." ~ 2 Corinthians 12:20-21

Faithfulness, though a powerful motivator of human decency, is itself not enough. Human decency requires self-reflection. Paul was faithful, but there were limits and bounds to his liberties and he was controlling, sometimes passive-aggressively (as in 2 Corinthians 12:20, and in all those verses where "this", "that", and "the other" won't inherit the kingdom of God) - which were things for him to recognize and overcome.

There was, at times, a lack of trust on Paul's part when it was time to wait for God; and he began to treat others in ways he wouldn't have wanted to be treated - not by man and not by God.

Tending to seedlings can be a weighty task, but you must leave room for God's mercy and trust God (I'm speaking to a people who can't yet hear). Seedlings belong to God first; they were God's love first.

As much as I care about the salvation of the world, Christ cares more, and God cares infinitely more. There is no good thing I am willing to do that God hasn't considered. But for the sake of God's glory and for man to understand God, God is being honest through me.

All I want from God always is the truth - as I've learned and understood these last few weeks. I only want God to be God, as I wouldn't be able to understand God any other way.

I can request from God to do something as small as restore my youth, or something as grand as hand over to me all the waters of the world, but I only want it accompanied by God's honesty for the sake of my lovers, the whole world, and God's glory (not that I would ever be given anything differently, but it is very important to understand).

Was it last year when I was repeatedly encouraged from above to, "Wait for God"? How fitting. How prophetic.

Sunday, September 27, 2020

Tweets - September 27th - Romans 13

I find it doubtful that Paul wrote Romans 13, but I wonder who exactly was the author's audience. He sounds like someone fully aware that they're on their own, abandoned by God, deathly afraid of the world, and views authority the only acceptable and appropriate way of dealing with an uncertain world. I live in Maryland, and if people continued to "do" Romans 13 rather than rebel against Romans 13 long ago, I'd be working in a white man's tobacco field.

I suppose the author forgot about Jesus himself. I'm certain the author considered Jesus "good", but that didn't stop him from having nails driven through his wrists. So whether you do good or evil, the outcome may be one and the same. The ONLY ones who truly benefit from a book like Romans 13 are governing authorities. For the rest of us, it would have been better for it to have been ripped out and tossed in the trash, along with Romans chapter 1, 2 Timothy, Hebrews, and Jude (the bad FAR outweighs any good, and the damage done to the human race has been immense).

But what can we say? The church became the graceless church the very moment she trusted nothing and feared everything. Seeing that nothing remotely like "salvation" comes by grace, she clung to laws and commandments (which can only be enforced with weapons and subjugation) - no matter how offensive or brutal - and this pleases the governments of the world (from the Roman Empire till today). It even pleased and inspired every hate-spewing and war-mongering prophet ever since. Good job!

Monday, September 21, 2020

Tweets - September 21st - Understanding

The liberty of God leads to understanding. What are these old joyful feelings? I haven't felt them in years, some I don't recall since childhood. My body has been made like the opening of God's song, and God will SING.

The spacecraft that flew and shined brightly tonight in response to my discussion warrants a bit of thought.

It hasn't been often that I've asked God for anything - I simply haven't needed to. God setup my path so that I wouldn't need to ask God for much of anything. This wasn't a path I've chosen, but God chose it for me. ("I" and "me" is everyone who is permitted to walk with God.)

When I ask for what I think is needed, God's response brings about understanding.

I understand God through God's deeds alone (just like everyone else who walks with God, above and on the Earth). There are no words more fluent than God's deeds (even if it takes me a few years to understand them - I am given the loving-mercy and patience to do so).

I have, therefore, also been given what I've needed (according to God's will) even though I didn't immediately realize it was exactly what I needed. This is the part of the discussion where the spacecraft became luminous, grew brighter and brighter, shining brightly in response.

Friday, September 18, 2020

Tweets - September 18th - Faith and Salvation

Faith isn't just knowing that we are receiving what we ask for, it is also trusting God's process; trusting the method in which God is handling it.

How amazing. Salvation is not dependent on faith, but on the mercy of God. Salvation is perpetual and ongoing; it is not dependent on some measure of faith, but rather on the will and purpose of God. Though God requires faith, faith is not transactional.

Faith, trusting faith, is the water that sustains the Garden of God. Salvation is life, beauty and honesty in all of its measure.

Sunday, September 6, 2020

Tweets - September 6th - Loving Neighbors

Can't really love your neighbors as you love yourself if you insist on creating a world where you must compete with them. Competition requires losers. Competition destroys the purpose and meaning of community. And if it's between you or your neighbor, who do you choose to lose? Capitalism is godlessness.

If we understand "love" as an action word, think of all the work involved in loving yourself. All the effort you put into yourself, your needs, your comfort, your future, your joys, your pleasures. In what way do you "love" your neighbor? Do you really "love" your enemies? There are liars all around, liars in pulpits and liars in mirrors.

Flipping nickels to beggars isn't love - it isn't the love you show yourself or your children. Abolishing the systems that turn neighbors into beggars is real love, the type of love you'd show your neighbors and your enemies if you truly loved your neighbors as yourself. I say these things as if I were someone without God's help, which is the only language you understand.

The church is like a small flame that has long been extinguished, and all that's left is smoke that's fading away.

"These people say the time has not yet come to rebuild the House of God.

Once more in a little while, I am going to shake the heavens and the earth, the sea also and the dry land. I will shake all the nations; and they will come with the wealth of all nations, and I will fill this House with glory. The silver is Mine and the gold is Mine. The latter glory of this House will be greater than the former, and in this place I will give peace.

I am going to shake the heavens and the earth. I will overthrow the thrones of kingdoms and destroy the power of the kingdoms of the nations; and I will overthrow the chariots and their riders, and the horses and their riders will go down, everyone by the sword of another.

On that day, I will take you, Zerubbabel, son of Shealtiel, My servant, and I will make you like a signet ring, for I have chosen you."

The understanding of Haggai, chapters 1 and 2

So many, so many people begging for mercy and human decency. But I'm telling you, there will be quietness. This world will be quiet.

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Though the truth of what I said rings clear, I could've said much of it less scoldingly and allowed myself to cool down a bit from all the hypocrisy so I could think more clearly.

Friday, September 4, 2020

Tweets - September 4th - Patterns and Harsh Things

Several spacecraft flew tonight, some glided, and other flew dimly but quickly brightened and quickly went dim. None of the ones that glided were well-lit, some were brighter and some were dimmer. I'm looking for patterns, because I won't speculate.

My faith... I sometimes have these feelings that God won't see through what God began. I noticed that I sometimes tell myself that God will see these things through - because I know it is certain, but I still have these feelings. So tonight I said to God that I would like to have the faith of Christ. I want my faith to be God's glory and God's effort and not my own. I may have asked for a harsh thing.

Monday, August 31, 2020

Tweets - August 31st - God's Work

We all bear witness to the actions of God. It has been told to us that God dropped off ancient holy books in the middle of a dry barren desert, surrounded them by venomous snakes and scorpions, and ensured that only the most advanced apologetically inclined Yale or Oxford graduate with an advanced doctorate degree in Debating and Godly Divinity can accurately understand them. How merciful.

It's almost like God wants people to roast in the fires of hell; you know, doing the least amount of work to ensure disbelievers remain disbelievers - being told that God cares about such things. Because if Allah or Jesus actually wanted disbelievers to become believers, then he could accomplish it in about 5 minutes flat. No time need be wasted on preachers, or long convoluted stories or gospels, or warmongering prophets who spend millennia doing what the lord could get done in about 5 minutes. It's almost like he wants us to burn forever - doing the most pathetic and absolute least amount of work one would expect from a god, and then becoming eternally pissed with us for accepting the nothingness we were given. It's almost like he struggles with forgiveness, requiring work and effort, and the blood and sacrifice and animals and Mary's children. How graceful.

In truth, atheists exist. Atheists don't exist because they choose to exist, but because the choice was made for them. God can end atheism in a matter of minutes, yet God has refused to. If God no longer wants Joe to be an atheist, then Joe will no longer be an atheist - which makes the work God's alone, and not mine or yours, or even Joe's.

Though we all bear witness, most of us refuse to believe what we see God doing.

Saturday, August 22, 2020

Tweets - August 22nd - Focus

For a while, at least for the short time I've been in this state of being healed, I thought it was my own protest that God would see through. But in truth, as it was made aware to me, it is God's protest through and through, and not mine at all.

Faith belongs to God. God requires faith, chile, then mountains crumble, populated places turn into rivers and lakes, and the dead are healed and given over to life. As for what exactly will be accomplished through this (besides my transformation), I'm unsure.

A lot of joy, a ton of hatred and pain - but there is a great wall of defense and strength, and love and dread, that I've called, "Yahweh". My focus is always Yahweh - not by any efforts or desires of my own - as I cannot glorify God for anyone, not even for myself.

My focus are the things of Yahweh: life eternal (and all that it accomplishes); decency (and all that it accomplishes); and restoring, redeeming, liberating justice (and all that it accomplishes) - all of which I lean on God to complete in man.

Friday, August 21, 2020

Tweets - August 21st - Learning

I live and I learn, just need to sit back and think things through. Everything that God does is purposeful, even healing some dicksucker while sucking a dick.

God is willing to be mocked and hated and unacknowledged for a time, just so that when God does show mercy, you become aware that it is God showing mercy (and not you showing mercy to yourself or receiving it from others) - then God is glorified.

And when God is glorified (which only God can do), the human body rejoices - the body which is destined for life.

Thursday, August 20, 2020

Living Resurrection

My healing is foolishness, something fit for the most naive and gullible child. What worldly wisdom is therein? This healing is for my community (whomever they may yet be) and myself, to the Glory of the Living God.

I used to have these pains in the glands in my neck (throat area) in the first cold of every fall or winter. I suppose these are lymph glands as I never bothered to get them checked out since the pain always went after a few days. I expected the pain every year, and I was never let down. I believe it was in 2008, the pain became so bad one evening that it woke me up in my sleep. I was 2 years in my walk with God at that point, and God had shown me such great kindness so far. So I took up my complaint to God and asked if God could remove the pain for good. I was as certain as the rising sun that my pain would be gone. I went back to sleep, woke up the next day with significantly less pain - and no more after that for the rest of the year.

But then the following winter, the pain came back. So then I could only assume that God didn't heal me, because I knew that when God brings about an end to something, it is DONE. So then all those things that Brent had mentioned and realized about the transformation of the flesh (the Living Resurrection) began to become clear to me (making plain what was blurry). At that very moment, I knew it was the end of my pain - and I haven't had any pains in my lymph glands in over a decade.

Even before then, I was diagnosed with dermatitis (seborrheic) on my scalp, which causes a thick flaky buildup and spreads like a rash when scratched. I was prescribed this steroid cream, which only seemed to help a little - but the cream was difficult to use through my locs. After that first bottle, I was done - it didn't cure the issue (as there is no cure for this type of dermatitis that I'm aware of), but it did alleviate some of the itching. I found similar relief in some moisturizers. Well having a head of hair, the dermatitis just wasn't something I really thought about - especially with all that was going on in my life. A little itch here, a little scratch there. Well, all of those itches and scratches took a bad turn when I could visibly see the affected darkened skin extend beyond the hairline. This, plus the unending flaking, is the reason why I wear a scarf/bandana all the time.

In January, I made a request to God, to make the salvation of God visible in my flesh by making it youthful; but around the same time, I also made another request, that God would get rid of this skin condition. A few nights ago, I was speak to heaven about the glory of God, and then I mentioned, "I am God's glory." (When I say "I", I'm speaking in reference to everyone who walks with God, as I am only unique in my creativity.) A spacecraft became luminous and slowly - slowly - became brighter and brighter in confirmation; which leads me to think that it became more true over time.

I wasn't sure how to take pictures of youthful skin (I am 40 - and any changes would be through touch until they become dramatic changes), but I knew I could take pics of my scalp.

The first 2 pics are my scalp before I washed it. They were taken last year some time (faith and foresight - as I took the pics before I asked God for help). You can see the darkened area extending beyond the hairline. This is the dermatitis when left untouched and unmoisturized.



The next 2 pics were taken after I washed my hair. I have to use my nails and scrub off the dead thick skin, which leaves behind that reddish wound that eventually flakes back over if I don't continually wash and moisturize (the more I wash, the less I have to scrub).



The next 2 pics were taken in early July. You can see the the light and dark spots on my forehead. It's when I first really began to notice it being healed.



The final 2 pics were taken the beginning of this month (August). The dermatitis is no longer on my forehead, and has since retreated back a little bit further. Though it is present in my beard and eyebrows (which you may be able to see).



Everything on time.

Monday, August 3, 2020

Tweets - August 3rd - Skin

About 6 or 7 years ago, I had an intimate get-together with 2 guys at my place - one guy was in his early 30s and the other was in his mid 20s. I remember rubbing the body of the guy in his 20s and being amazed at the softness of his skin.

I immediately attributed this incredible softness of his skin to his youth. As far as I was concerned, such things were part of my distant future while walking in God's Garden.

It seems that such things aren't so distant after all. The skin on my elbows, my knees, my feet, the area above the heel of my feet (achilles area), my lower legs, my forearms, my stomach, my lower back - they all have new soft skin. It's nearing what the guy in his 20s had, but not quite there yet. But I am amazed at how soft my elbows, knees, and heels are - I keep rubbing them just to be sure I'm actually feeling what I think I'm feeling.

My face is doing something - I met with my mother last week for her birthday, and I sat far away from her just so she wouldn't ask me a bunch of questions about the blemishes. She even noticed I was sitting far away from her and suggested I sit closer - but I didn't budge.

Faith is a feedback loop: the outcomes of faith can be used to encourage faith.

Friday, July 31, 2020

Tweets - July 31st - Truth being told

People have been so ashamed, so deeply ashamed at the awful destruction they've caused. Their indecency will not allow them to repair or restore, so they cover up their filth with 6 feet of dirt and overlay it with cement, and they stand tall and unapologetically, convincing the world that "nothing else was possible".

But Yahweh is truth. God is open and honest about how God feels about humanity. God goes out with brick and mortar and paves many paths for mankind, and each of those paths lead to a single destination: the grave.

It is the word of God, the severity of God, that the whole world understands clearly. This is faith established on God's power - it is branded in you - there is no doubt in you. It requires no explanation from any prophet. The word of God is heavy.

But Yahweh is truth. Getting to know God over the years, I've understood that devastation from God's brutal honesty was part of the future of this place.

This will require the truth being told, and we are going to watch people perish trying to stop God from digging up graves of truths. No one resurrects the Truth quite like the Living God.

Monday, July 27, 2020

Tweets - July 27th - Pain

Is there a heavier seed of doubt than pain? Physical pain? Perhaps fear? Maybe they weigh the same for some people and differently for others. There's always opportunities to learn and understand, to see just a bit more clearly.

You know, God is faithful. The faithfulness of God is triumphant. The power of faith heals through pain (and fear, and blemish, and discomfort) - even in spite of it, I've learned. Doubt seems to only delay the inevitable.

Sunday, July 26, 2020

Tweets - July 26th - Capitalism

This is precisely why capitalism requires a pool of unemployed out-of-workers to pull from. If there aren't people out of work, then you must pull people from other employers by enticing them with hiring wages.

https://twitter.com/blckculturenews/status/1286472667240050696

If McDonald's begins to lack workers and needs to pull those people back, they'll need to up their salaries. In order to up folks salaries, they have to charge more for items (a $2 loaf of bread now costs $6).

Capitalism cannot thrive on perpetual salary wars - it would fluctuate and collapse the economy quickly - so it must thrive on poverty and oppression instead (which so leads to violence, slums, ghettos, and weaponized police).

To ensure there is always a pool of unemployed out-of-workers to pull from, we have what is known as an "ideal rate of unemployment", which requires (ideally) 3 to 5% of the population to live below the poverty line and be actively looking for full-time work.

This 3 to 5% does not account for people who have given up looking for work - as we know, people barely making ends meet and the homeless account for more than 3% of the population.

The Federal Reserve (in the US) is responsible for managing the supply of money and lending to banks.

The Federal Reserve is also responsible for stimulating the economy by ensuring that "ideal rate of unemployment" never rises or drops below ~5% (so that pulling employees from McDonald's is only a rare occurrence and not the norm).

They do this by hiking up the interest rates of their loans (to banks), and by raising the federal funds rate (the interest rate at which banks lend to one another), when they need to ensure more people are out of work and rely on welfare.

Higher interest rates ensure that less money is requested (by banks, businesses, and consumers - houses, cars, personal businesses, etc).

On the opposite end, when the unemployment rate is too high, the Federal Reserve drops interest rates so that more banks, businesses, and consumers request more money (which leads to higher spending and more people employed and paid).

In March, the Federal Reserve dropped the fed funds rate to 0% due to the pandemic. Right now, I believe it stands at about 0.25%.

Therefore, according to the laws of Capitalism the Unjust, the Unmerciful, there can never be full-employment. This means that the police, violence, poverty, and laws designed to discourage rather than uplift will always be with us.

Thursday, July 23, 2020

Tweets - July 23rd

A week or 2 ago there were these 2 spacecrafts that flew together, then this very bright spacecraft came into view and remained bright as it flew across the sky (reminded me of a closer Venus). It wasn't part of any conversation - from my end.

I have been so very grateful over this period (whatever this period is) - being on the receiving end of mercy, kindness, and gentleness.

And I have been so thankful to God, not because I have anything more than I've ever had, but because I've been made to realize what I've had all along. I lack no good thing and I never need to ask God for anything. God is glorified through my efforts just because God wants to be.

Saturday, July 18, 2020

Tweets - July 18th - Dreams

A few months ago, after I had that dream about the dead bodies of all those black youth floating in water, it was the first time I had considered that some of those dreams I had could have possibly/likely been from flying lying devils. I just never considered it before then.

https://sanctuaryforjustice.org/2019/12/dream-of-black-youth-december-12th.html

I suppose if those deceivers were going to toss a wrench into some plan, now would be the time.

I don't have a very deep imagination - so I am easily impressed, entertained, and awed. My friends sometimes would mock me because I'm not a good story-teller; I'd tell a story, but there'd be no punch line or climax, and they'd sit there and look at me like I'd have more to add.

So when I had those dreams all those years ago, I woke up easily in awe - even when disturbed by some of them.

For the sake of reference: http://junyabell.blogspot.com/2008/03/dream-of-future.html. I considered it "the distant future", because of how unrealistic it sounded to me to happen in this generation.

Some of those dreams were remarkable - revealing the exiled Earth among beacons of light in this populated universe (months before the messengers began flying overhead); showing all of humanity standing before a 300-foot tall mirror, and our only reflection was death (something like a grim reaper); introducing me to the understanding of Eternal Life and salvation from death (it was an "Ohhhh!!" moment for sure).

Dreams themselves make for poor prophecy, I've stubbornly learned - and a dreamer can be a worthless destructive prophet.

According to Jeremiah, ancient Israel was filled with them, before God delivered some to the sword and shackled the rest by their ankles and dragged them out. And that was the end of that! Hindsight and understanding God are a more clear way to see forward.

Wednesday, July 8, 2020

Tweets - July 8th - Healing and Justice

Several spacecrafts flew overhead tonight, but there were 2 messages. While thinking to myself, "I am actively being healed", a spacecraft became luminous and very bright, and flew straight upward (from my point of view). I haven't seen them do that in years.

I'm not always "on", but my flesh seems to be healing on its own at times. Makes me wonder if this is like riding a bike - where I pedal for a while, and then the bike coasts for a while; or is there active involvement from above. I suppose there could be a control group.

I remember being healed in the past, but it wasn't because of faith or trust, and the change was quicker and dramatic, which isn't what is happening right now. (What I'm experiencing now is different; what's happening now is childlike faith.)

I wrote this in September 2009, at a time when I thought angels received esoteric revelation from God (I mention this because I am always moving forward, and there are things I understand today that I didn't understand yesterday).

Last year in July, my wisdom tooth in the lower left part of my mouth was in pain. The pain became so intense that I could barely even eat. I told my boss, my mother, and my friends that I would have to have a dentist remove my tooth. I went on Youtube to see if there were videos of people having their wisdom teeth removed, and the process it took. One common method involved cutting the gums, drilling holes in the tooth, and taking it out piece by piece. Another common method involved taking a hammer and chisel to the tooth in somewhat of a barbaric manner, and pulling out the pieces. Both methods made me nervous. But the pain was so intense that it would wake me up several times at night. So I went outside one night and asked Yahweh if He could help me. I looked to my God, to see if He would send His messengers to help me. I knew that Yahweh would protect me from harm, but I never knew what He could do with a painful tooth - nor did I ever think about it before that time.
I explained to Yahweh that I did not want to go through the surgery, and that I would wait a little while for Him, because the pain was so unbearable. No messengers flew across the sky to tell me that God would help me. So I just went inside and eventually went to sleep. The next day, or maybe 2 days later, the pain was significantly less, and it didn't hurt bad to eat. This continued for the next 2 or 3 days. After these 2 or 3 days, there was no more pain at all. So I stuck my finger in the back of my mouth to see if it would hurt then; not only did I not feel any pain, but when I rubbed my gums I could feel that my tooth had changed position.

Later, I was thinking about justice and saw another spacecraft that was flying very slowly. I was thinking about how justice (true justice) does not require fear - as people tremble and shake at the thought of what these people call "justice".

These prison systems, and death sentences, and having your hands and feet chopped off because some legislator and a poor excuse of a god can't fathom mercy or the complexities of human experiences and emotions.

Fear makes transparency seem like a ridiculously stupid idea. Who would ever submit to transparency and willingly be held accountable in this place?

While the spacecraft was flying, I asked, "Would you agree that justice does not require fear?" - and the spacecraft became brighter and brighter in confirmation.

Tuesday, July 7, 2020

Tweets - July 7th - Community and Trust

Community is the way forward towards creative social, communal, and individual goals; community is the way to justice, and therefore peace.

What community means is that a lot of people would no longer be doing what they hate for 40+ hours each and every week - submitting to authority while chasing dangling carrots until you can hopefully retire by 65.

This then means that a lot of wealthy people would no longer be able to maintain wealth (such as excessively large homes and luxury yachts) and this government would no longer be as wealthy as it is currently.

Without wealth, there is no American military industrial complex. Big guns require big money. Far too many atrocious and violent injustices have been committed for all to be forgotten. To many mothers and sons have been bombed and blasted out of existence for all to be forgiven.

Communities require trust - it is literally step 1. For regional and global communities alike, there must first be justice and restoration - this is the only beginning of trust.

If truth and justice are not options for each and every person, if the most overlooked person has no way to address their concern for a real solution, then you're damned in whatever you do and you're damned in whatever you don't do.

Monday, July 6, 2020

Tweets - July 6th

Though hindsight is 20/20 foresight, it appears that prophecy can also come about through faith. Faith itself is a product of hindsight, so this makes sense. This reminds me of the commutative and associative laws of mathematics ((a + b) + c = a + (b + c)).

And when I say, "faith", I mean "trust" - the way a young child trusts its mother. Not "faith" as in feelings, opinions, and beliefs. Faith is a product of hindsight (experience).

Sunday, July 5, 2020

Tweets - July 5th

Since the end of May, I've wondered if these protests are the searing hot coals I mentioned, or should I expect something else? If these are the hot coals, then we should expect to be moving forward.

Everything can be improved upon; this is your work. All systems require attention and maintenance; nothing runs forever without care; when this attentive care ceases, the system begins to shut down and fall apart and its parts are used for other purposes.

The Garden of God is a community, and all communities require solidarity and unity and purpose. But this world is no Garden. Unfortunately, in a world like ours, the most assured path to solidarity is catastrophe.

But before the heat of the fire comes, there is light; there is opportunity to make decisions.

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I could be wrong. I just found out that heat and light travel at the same speed.

Friday, July 3, 2020

Tweets - July 3rd

The messengers have been flying nearly every night since the end of March. There was one night I recall that I didn't see them - a storm was approaching, and I didn't spend much time outside that evening. But every other night they made themselves noticeable over the town.

There have been very subtle changes in my flesh, and if I didn't see and feel the details of my body everyday, I wouldn't notice. It's like the sum of many small parts.

Very subtle changes, such as the softening of my skin (which I had considered) and the softening of the soles of my feet (which I had not considered).

There is one change that has been subtle but noticeable in the mirror - and I have been taking pictures since before the changes began (because God is God, and the visible mercy of God is the foundation of my faith - so this change would have been the only possible outcome, and it only made sense to me to start taking pictures before the changes began).

I am wowed by the changes (I walked out of the bathroom yesterday with an uncontrollable closed-lip smile), but the reasons for my joy would not be shared and would go unnoticed. So I'll likely post at a time I am more fully astonished.

Saturday, June 27, 2020

Glory

For the last couple of days I've been thinking about the glory of God. I've been debating if I should even discuss it, because no one can yet hear, but it has been on my mind. I remembered something recently. The first time a spacecraft ever flew in response to something I said, it was in reference to the glory of God. Those spacecrafts had already been flying overhead, but in 2006 I believe, I said, "Your glory is in the sky", and a spacecraft flew very fast. I was perplexed, so I said it again, "Your glory is in the sky", and a spacecraft flew very fast. Then for months, they only flew in response to the things I was discussing.

Even though I said, "Your glory is in the sky", I didn't yet have understanding of what I saying, but they did, and I just so happened to be right without even understanding why I was right.

Only God can glorify God. All things exist, both light and dark, both moving and still, for God's glory. Lip service is never ever required. In fact, man cannot glorify God; only God can glorify God (even through man, a rock, an ant, or a dog). If God could be glorified through man, then God could also be unglorified and brought low by man.

If God wants a tree chopped down, then the tree can be chopped down without a single person knowing God's desire.

Is the glorification of oneself selfish? By definition, yes. If we could compare, we seek pleasure by eating rich foods, and playing card games, and painting, and understanding the unknown, and allowing others to lick and rub our genitals - all for our own glory. Even if it were possible to be completely selfless, you'd have to have the desire to do so. No one prefers to exist doing the things they hate to do - God surely does not. God is no tyrant and certainly no slave.

Glorification is absolutely 100% harmful if done without care (for oneself and others). God does nothing without care, even abandoning a race of people (humanity) for thousands and thousands of years.

God can only be God, and you won't find any half-stepping with God (a bullshitter who has no intention in completing what was started). The tree-stump known as Jesus may heal you from whatever ails you at the moment (as you have prayed and believed), but your whole existence and being knows your days are numbered. This is Jesus half-stepping; healing the wounds of the dying dead.

For God to glorify you is for God to glorify who you are; for God to glorify you is for God to glorify God. There is only death and eternal life, and God is honest and severe and glorified in both.

Perhaps for the sake of clarity: there were these dogs who spent so much time with mankind that their bodies changed, and they learned how to talk. Learning to talk, they learned how to write. The dogs became so curious about their own existence, that they began to seek understanding, but only for a time. The dogs began to make up stories to fill in the vacuum of information. They also began making up arbitrary rules, even convincing one another that it was wrong to bark. Something being wrong for long enough epochs became a sin - a sin which the dog lord hated. So the dogs refused to bark, even when they had the urge to. They then enforced rules of marriage and life-long monogamy - so no more humping the legs of men, that was a sin too. According to their stories, the dog lord promises to eternally shove a hot curling iron up the ass of the dog who humps the leg of a human. The un-dogs became judgmental and even inflicted violence on the dogs who barked. Male dogs who mounted other male dogs were beaten, shot, stabbed or hanged (depending on the area of the world they were in).

But then there were these other dogs who knew that they knew nothing, but who wanted to know things without making anything up. They barked, and played, and humped whomever allowed themselves to be humped. Even with the little that they understood about their own existence and the existence of God, they refused to lie to themselves or make anything up; they only believed what was in their face. Those were the dogs of God's favor; those were the dogs who believed the little of God and were given more; those were the dogs with which God was willing to share eternal life.

A dog is a dog, and God has never expected it to be anything else.

Thursday, June 18, 2020

Tweets - June 18th - Inequity and Lessons

Not long after I posted my last tweet, I became under the impression that all of those spacecrafts I saw were representative of people. That's what makes sense right now based on my own reasoning.

I needed to remind myself that I have absolutely no control over the situation. People may in part cling to God and desire the Garden of God, but they may also cling to the status quo. This wouldn't be so much of a problem if the status quo didn't perpetuate so much harm and inequity, and SO MANY forms of injustice.  All I can do is make things plain to them - light up the path and be a voice of caution - they will do with that information as they see fit. I remember my stubbornness and my insistence on doing things my way - it was humiliating, it was painful, and I imagine at times it left a bad taste in the mouths of folk who walk with God (on Earth and above). BUT it did also allow me to foresee and to understand God in ways I previously hadn't. I could only be myself, and I do not regret any of it (not anymore).

It has been interesting watching people perceive the world in ways they had never considered before. Inequity ain't cheap - it's costly in the long run. I myself would only teach lessons on decency and faithfulness to people who want to learn (to walk with God is to walk in liberty). But those who don't want to learn have to be taught as well - it just won't be me teaching them. You are what God makes you to be, and there is no way everyone will be able to survive God's lessons on human decency. If God is willing to split the unsplittable stone for me, then God is also willing to turn the stone into iron for the sake of decency and justice. God is capable of teaching lessons to people who refuse to learn anything (of course there will be exceptions, and you'll find them in cemeteries and mounds of dirt).

It was God who created the conditions that would allow injustice to grow and thrive. Have you seen some other world? It was not man who chose to abandon God, but it was God who chose to abandon man. As such, you have no control over God's decisions. You cannot choose God, God chooses you (or not). Grace is truly grace when it comes to the Living God, and not that substitute forgery that the bible peddles as "grace", where we must follow a long list of commands in order to make an exchange for God's "kindness and mercy". Me slobbing some guys knob is like burning the lord's cash and receiving my one-way ticket to hell (such a "spirit of fear" is inherent in religion and her many gospels).

There are tools of inequity in this place based solely on ideologies (such as gender and race) and this world has been darkened by them. There is just no way God is going to be partnered with the will of man and his many judgments - not until lessons are learned. I am not concerned in any case. You see, God requires faith, but it is God who makes the leap first; nothing more is required from you than what you are given.

Sunday, June 7, 2020

Tweets - June 7th - Thanking

When we know, we teach; but we are all students, we are all always students. Whenever you boast, you boast imperfect; whatever you lift, you lift incomplete.

Last night, I was thanking God for making things in such a way that there are always opportunities to move forward; always opportunity to learn more and understand new things. When I thanked God, I didn't use "always" temporally, I did so as someone who stands in life eternal.

If anyone is going to be completing anything in this place, it will be God; for God, through God, and to God. Nothing is separate from God.


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What looked like 30 or so spacecrafts flew overhead tonight (I'll admit, I'm not 100% sure they weren't satellites). They all flew in the same direction, some at different times, speeds, and starting points (from my point of view) - coming toward me, but flying overhead.

The one in the lead (which wasn't the first I saw) was the brightest, but flickered; the second (which caught my eye first) was less bright, and the rest were dim.

As the 30 were finishing, gun shots were fired in the distance, and a bright spacecraft flew (and it was certainly a spacecraft) but flew in a different direction. And there were others that flew.

That last noticeable 2 that flew, flew in parallel, but toward each other and passed each other. Not sure what to make of it all yet.

As I reread this, I'm thinking that not knowing whether the 30 or so were angels or not was intentional and part of the message.

Going back over my memory. When I saw the first spacecraft (which was the second brightest, and not in the lead), I thought it was a spacecraft, and I initially thought the flickering one was also a spacecraft.

But as I saw more and more dim ones that flew, I became less and less convinced that any of them were spacecrafts. When I voiced my uncertainty, I received no response - only more dim spacecrafts.

Wednesday, June 3, 2020

Tweets - June 3rd - Laws

All laws are man-made; they are made up by people sitting in seats. They aren't divine edicts from some tyrant out of heaven - you can freely oppose bad laws, freely disagree with unjust laws.

Just because a law gives you the right to kill or do harm for the sake of capital, it does not actually justify you, and it certainly does not make you a decent human being.

Joe Blow in a seat says it's OK to shoot someone stealing a toaster. The law of Joe is the law of Joe, and one day he and his law will be gone.

There is no law nor capital nor commodity more valuable than an individual's life; any law which protects and defends a system that says otherwise is an unjust law, and its proponents are workers of indecency.

How would you feel if God exchanged you for a toaster? Your children were as valuable as a microwave?

Thursday, May 28, 2020

Tweets - May 28th - Wonderful

I can walk in any direction, and You are right there with me. I can take a small hammer to a 2-ton boulder, thinking I'll be chiseling for years, but You are You. You show me who You are, then You make sure the unsplittable boulder is split in 2 just so that my labor isn't great, just so I don't have to suffer and struggle. You are the glory of my work, and You continue to amaze me, even after all these years.

And then Your "messengers", even Christ among them: they are completely aware of who I am, my behaviors, my limitations. They never encourage me to do what I hate, and they're aware of my willingness to move forward and my disdain for going backward. Before I had ever seen the Garden, they set me before soil and gave me seeds because they knew my capability, and they knew my desire would be to seek out what is true, even among all the fluff and opinions and words of the world, and then they knew I'd be eager to see fruit.

And then Brent: I'm only able to sing my poetry and dance naked on the temple grounds because he laid the foundation. He had to be called first. He makes plain what is blurry - it's the honor and integrity of his work; I would not have been able to see without him. I've sometimes wondered why we both trended toward computer programming. Was it intentional and specific? Or was there something Christ desired in our characters that would lead us both in that direction?

Everything on time.

Tuesday, May 26, 2020

Tweets - May 26th - According to the Flesh

Being mindful of the Living Resurrection, I said to heaven tonight, "I really don't have to worry about anything". Then the spacecraft grew brighter and brighter and flashed very bright.

"From now on, we regard no one according to the flesh. Even though we once regarded Christ according to the flesh, we regard him thus no longer. Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come." 2 Corinthians 5:16-17

This is one of those cringe-worthy scriptures. Christ often offended the Jewish leaders because he led people to understand that the laws of Moses were the laws of a tree-stump, and that they had nothing to do with the Living God.

He led all those young people astray, so the Jewish leaders convinced the Romans to hang him on a cross - teaching all of those lawbreakers a lesson. If this verse was written by Paul, then it's because he too found the life of Christ so very offensive.

The life of Christ was a bad influence on the Church, as Christ was sometimes called a "glutton" and a "drunkard" by Jewish leaders and could be found partying with prostitutes.

So the Church could no longer know Christ as the man he once was, but must be known as something new altogether.

In reality, Yeshua is Yeshua. To know Yeshua is to know him "according to the flesh" - unless we seek to know him according to our thoughts, feelings and beliefs (which has been a useless waste of 2000 years and has brought not a ray of light to this dark world).

There was no due cause for anyone to find Yeshua offensive. The soft flesh of Yeshua is liberating. It is liberating because the body is no longer a burden and prison of sadness and despair.

It is liberating because, in the footsteps of Christ and the mercy of God, I do not have to put off the old (by decaying) and be clothed with the new; God has permitted life to transform the old into new while the living remains living. This is the Living Resurrection.

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Intent and context are important. In hindsight, "cringe-worthy" comes across judgmental when I meant it to be relatable. The 5th chapter of 2 Corinthians gave me pause and concern because it appears Paul and the Church understood that salvation was delayed for some future date.

They were likely witnessing "the body of Christ" drop dead and decay like everyone else on the planet. So yes, for Paul and the Church, it became true that salvation was for some future date (because God was not saving them then and there).

The Church had abandoned simple human decency in favor of a moral code (such as sex laws), and God was not going to glorify such things and persist such things into something eternal. Eternal life is for children, 5 year old children and 2000 year old children.

I have been made new, but we are talking about the Living God here, and the method of becoming new does not mean the old must wait for the kindness of God by forgoing mercy and salvation and withering away.

Saturday, May 23, 2020

Tweets - May 23rd - No Garden without Justice

There is no Garden without justice. There is no Garden without restoration. Christ said, "here is justice", and chose to raise up "Sodom" from the grave.

But there is no Garden without justice. The plundering, the lynching, the cheating, the justification for violence and murder, there must be restoration. There is no community of lovers if there is no justice and restoration for all the times your neighbor enslaved your fathers, or stole the copper and gold from underneath your feet, or bulldozed your home because you have different ancestors, or dropped bombs on your mother's head, or shot your son because he ran while black, or stabbed your sister because she was trans.

I eagerly wait for God, and I never have to know violence, and God has permitted me to have a say in God's decisions - because the Garden, the Earth, is as much mine as it is anyone else who clings to God. So you see the risk of Christ in choosing someone like me.

So then, what? Well, isn't it obvious? God will have a Garden, and what this means is that either 1) people, and businesses, and nations who pursue injustice and refuse to restore what they have destroyed (the people, the homes, the livelihoods) will encounter something like walking on searing hot coals until they walk the way of justice and restoration, or 2) God will cause them, their children, and their work to die, wither up and perish. God will have a Garden.

I can't figure out what the hot coals are or should be. I need more information. I'm not a fan of option 2, and it must be the absolute last resort because searing hot coals just wasn't enough.

Wednesday, May 13, 2020

Tweets - May 13th - Gifts of the spirit

Paul said, "For one who speaks in a tongue speaks not to men but to God; for no one understands him, but he utters mysteries in the Spirit." ~ 1 Corinthians 14:2

I came across this verse yesterday. When I speak to God - especially when I'm outside - I don't physically speak to God like I speak to other people. If I did, it would be strange to me. People have ears, and when you speak you really have to be loud enough and clear enough so that they hear and understand what you're saying - but the same isn't true with God. So it's been unnecessary to speak to God in this manner.

I suppose, from looking outside in, it would appear that I am mumbling (because I am certainly audible). Calling it "tongues" and "in the spirit" is a strange way of putting it. I don't care much for vague words like "spirit", as it leaves the reader to interpret as they please. And were there really people around listening on other's conversations with God (being able to interpret what the person was saying to God)? Someone staring at me trying to interpret my conversation would likely cause me to stop speaking.

As for the other "gifts of the spirit" (1 Corinthians 12:8-10):
"For to one is given through the Spirit the utterance of wisdom" ~ Wisdom is the byproduct of time and experience. There is simplicity in wisdom, but it is always incoming with time; time spent with God, with people who walk with God, with the world, and with a mirror.

"and to another the utterance of knowledge according to the same Spirit" ~ Knowledge comes from understanding anything. You understand God by watching God; you understand yourself by looking at yourself as you ascertain why you do the things you do.

"to another faith by the same Spirit" ~ Faith is why your small children are unconcerned with the thought of you picking them up and tossing them in a bonfire; faith is why a small shih tzu is wholly unafraid of walking beside his 300-pound owner.

"to another gifts of healing by the one Spirit" ~ This is subjective. Am I healing someone else or myself? If myself, then this requires faith, or study and experience; if someone else, then it requires study and experience.

"to another the working of miracles" ~ This is subjective as well, but also vague. Miracles could be anything from the perspective of someone who doesn't walk with God. Communing with angels could be considered a "miracle".

"to another prophecy" ~ The clearest foresight is 100% hindsight. Prophecy isn't mysticism, it is insight and understanding. An angel may have a word, but how do you know if you can trust the source?

"to another the ability to distinguish between spirits" ~ Not every "angel of light" is an angel. It isn't always easy to tell them apart - and it's easy to be deceived if you're too trusting at that moment. Depending on the messages given, you may be able to discern and distinguish them, but not always. You can't distinguish them at all by looking at them, but only by what they say.

"to another various kinds of tongues, to another the interpretation of tongues" ~ This was previously discussed.

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It finally clicked tonight why the messengers have been flying overhead all these nights. Tonight was just as beautiful. I am given what I need. They have been encouraging me with this healing of my flesh, this Living Resurrection, pushing me forward. And I am learning.

Tuesday, May 12, 2020

Tweets - May 12th

The messengers have continued to fly over my home every night I'm outside. A few nights ago, there were so many spacecrafts that flew. 2 nights ago I was reminded that I never do anything alone (my work is helped).

The night the messengers flew and flew and flew, before I went outside, my mind was focused on a puzzling project for my job (I'm a software developer) and when I went outside, I said, "This is gonna be on my mind all night. I'm not gonna get any sleep tonight."

I had even been getting these eye twitches from staring intently at the computer screen for hours. But then the messengers flew, and when they flew, my focus changed. My focus moved to the transformation of my flesh and away from the stress and struggles of problem solving.

I still needed to problem solve (because I still have to pay bills and buy food), but the stress and struggle of it was gone. Those eye twitches that I had for a few days are gone for the most part. And I went to sleep that night and slept like a baby.

Things have really changed the past few days with how I think about and approach the work of transforming and healing my flesh - the Living Resurrection. There has been a bit of clarity and ease that didn't exist before. I don't walk anywhere alone (I am always helped).

When Christ was ready and went searching for people to raise out of the dirt, he didn't go looking for a charismatic salesman (a preacher of any sort) - and he had many to choose from. And as Jewish as his heritage is, Christ went looking far away from Israel.

There is a new covenant, and it is not founded on heritage or lineage or borders. Israel was meant to shine, but they feared the desert, warred their way into a populated place, invented their laws and commandments, and they could no longer remember the simplicity found in God.

One of their prophets (Micah) said to them, "God has shown you what is good. There is nothing more that God requires from us than to be just, to love kindness, and to walk humbly with God."

But there is a new covenant, and it is founded on humanity, justice, compassion, gentleness, and faithfulness. Christ chose to fulfill the poetic words of Ezekiel and "restore the fortunes of Sodom", so that the glory of God would first be established in and through gay folk.

Monday, May 4, 2020

Tweets - May 4th

Tweeted by Brent: https://www.charismanews.com/opinion/81021-the-bible-s-promises-to-restore-your-health-youthful-appearance

Has she dipped her spoon in someone else's pot without acknowledging the chef? She even likens herself to Zerubbabel. Could certainly be coincidence.

But where would they even take this? They hate the Garden, so where do they plan to go? Where do they think their sons and daughters will go? Certainly not with them to the land of ankle skirts, hijabs and chastity.

This Living Resurrection, as you've called it, is ultimately the destruction of her religion (especially when it's revealed that there was nothing "supernatural" about it). These prophets dig their own holes just fine; their destruction is the only possible outcome.

They use these "healings" as tools to convince people that their holy writings are honest, and that they are honest prophets whose instructions should be followed and not investigated.

This Living Resurrection is no tool to convince anyone of anything; if anything, it's a tool to get your dick sucked by somebody who wants to suck it.

These people have no knowledge of God, they don't even really like God (the judgment of God is so very offensive to them that they lie and make up tales). But the Living Resurrection is sharp and brutally honest and, with life, it belongs to God.

Saturday, May 2, 2020

Tweets - May 2nd

2 notable messages this evening, 2 confirmations from above. 1, I may get pierced in the foot by a wet rusty nail, but I won't suffer an infection.

-- For the sake of clarity, I was telling heaven what happened in the past, but in a future tense (is there a word for this?). I then received the response.

2, Thinking about sexually transmitted infections and the folks who will soon come to know God, we will all watch God and learn together (this was acknowledged 2 or 3 times).

Tuesday, April 28, 2020

Tweets - April 27th - Love your enemies

"Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you". Praying for your enemies is a subjugation tactic, and was written by a Church scribe who did not actually know Christ or God.

These things may sound nice, but they are incomplete and overall harmful, especially when justice is not sought after (making right what was made wrong).

Encouraging people to feel certain ways - about anything - good or bad - usually leads to more shame, more judgment, more violence, and certainly more religion. It's better to learn from your feelings, and not hide them, hate them, or be ashamed of them.

Love is not a light switch you flip on and off, especially for someone who has raped you, beat you, or otherwise traumatized you because they were convinced by others to feel certain ways about you. "Loving your enemies" sounds really nice, but it isn't good enough.

Christians have been "loving their enemies" for the last 2000 years, and I still can't twirl down the street without being judged and called a faggot by a lot of them - and don't let me be black at the wrong place and the wrong time.

It's like donating to the poor - it never brings about an end to poverty - it just isn't good enough, and I don't care whose god said it is (though helpful for a moment, it is an overall worthless solution).

Walking with God, I haven't sought out the well-being of those who walk with God. Why would I ask God to do what God is already doing? Walking with God, there is no point in praying for the well-being of those who don't walk with God.

I tried that a little over a decade ago - specifically with gay men in mind, and the response I received was a resounding, "NO!". Shut me up and sat me down in a corner to think about what I'd done for several years. God is equitable.

If I were giving counsel to someone who is getting to know God's kindness firsthand, I would say, "Wait for Yahweh. The Garden of God is faithfulness, human decency, and justice. Do no harm to those who seek to harm you. You will look on with your eyes and see that their portion has been cut short. Just wait. You'll look for them and you won't be able to find them."

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Yeah, I know it's "always" the wrong place and the wrong time to be black in America - but I was quickly writing and referring to reactionary in-your-face racism and oppression rather than systemic oppression.

And all the same goes for the command to "love God with all your heart". It's a harmful idea, and it causes people to lie to themselves about how they really feel about God.

Monday, April 27, 2020

Tweets - April 27th

"Bring to light what is kept in darkness. Make plain what is kept hidden." This was on my mind tonight as the messengers flew overhead. Looks like my battle will be against liars and those who seek to sell a narrative in order to gain and destroy.

I too have a narrative, and it starts and ends with the Garden of God on this Earth. Humanity will be a light in this place. This is the breadth and depth of my desire; this is the value of my life, and our salvation indeed belongs to God.

I am quiet and I walk everywhere with my hands behind my back (figuratively). You see, God is my strength (which is the song of everyone who is permitted to walk with God, everywhere). I can already hear folks whispering and chatting, "He had such potential!! What a waste."

Sunday, April 19, 2020

Tweets - April 19th - Unashamed

I used to often say to heaven, "God is the greatest poet", because of the strange and unique ways God was being revealed to me. It's hard to walk with God and not pick up on this poetic attribute.

Even when the messengers speak, they speak referentially and symbolically - though I don't always understand them. But by doing so, they allow me the freedom to grow, the liberty to think - their approach in dealing with me has been very heuristic.

They don't confine my thinking by telling me what to believe, look for, or consider. They've worked diligently to ensure that they do not set a bad example for me (in the early years, I was very impressionable when it came to them); at the same time they're just being themselves.

Something I've been keeping hidden because I'm not completely sure "why": every night I've sat outside since the end of March, the messengers have flown overhead. No sense of urgency (with all these fires that are burning around us), they have been calmly watching and speaking.

I wait expectantly for God. "All the paths of Yahweh are truth." The Living God who has walked with me has remained faithful, from the very beginning; this was God's pleasure before it was made my own. "All the paths of Yahweh are lovingkindness."

Sometimes I get so excited thinking about the liberty of life and all that we can pursue in this vast place. There are always lessons, always new things to learn; but I'm permitted to live to learn them. The dead cannot learn anything.

I could be brought down to the point of death, even to death, but death would not consume me. Whether afraid or unafraid, God remains faithful and trustworthy (I will never be met with shame).

Monday, March 30, 2020

Tweets - March 30th

The messengers have been graceful, from day one. I remember seeing those videos that people would take of those spacecrafts, and those things would zig-zag across the sky. I've never seen them do that - they have always been graceful.

Tonight was just chit chat, no heavy conversations, just me expressing some things that were on my mind. I mentioned that I really have no one to share myself with - not that I don't want to - but no one would understand me, and they agreed.

But I shared my feelings with them, and they listened - no judgments, no opinions other than to confirm my own (if they agreed).

I was about to get up and go back inside, and I felt a tingle on my neck - so I gently scratched it and turned my head in the direction of the tingle and there was a star that didn't belong - so I knew it was a spacecraft and it was slowly flying away.

Then another spacecraft - much more dimly lit - became visible and followed behind that one. When I saw the one that became visible, all I could think to do was to say, "Hi".

The spacecraft slowed down almost to a halt and became brighter and brighter - it made me think of someone walking by, minding their business, but then turning back to look at you and say, "Hello!". Then it picked up speed, dimmed, and flew out of sight.

All I could think to do was snap my fingers and say "WERK!!!" (I didn't actually do it, but it was what I was thinking, for sure).

Monday, March 16, 2020

Tweets - March 16th - Virus

I have not known God to communicate in the ways of animals (including human tongues and languages); but I have not found anyone above nor below nearly as eloquent as God.

Life belongs to God. If God's last resort is to kill a virus (which belongs to God), it was only because God needed to kill the host. Evolution, adaption, and biological defenses are incredible gifts; extraordinary forms of justice.

Sunday, March 1, 2020

Tweets - March 1st - Transformation

Yesterday, I became so very angered and saddened and offended by sexually transmitted diseases and infections (especially after seeing someone - who is sexually liberated and liberating - show depression in their words on Twitter).

STDs and STIs are just in the way of what I want achieved in this world. They always have been, even since the beginning of my walk with God. They stand in the way of liberty. Then pieces of the puzzle just fell together.

I was paid a visit tonight by messengers in 2 spacecrafts (or 1 spacecraft 2 times - I can't say for sure). I was interrupted from ridiculing myself.

I don't need to ridicule or even forgive myself for not understanding things, even the most simple of things. I don't treat anyone else this way, why did I attempt to do this to myself? (I do need to understand.)

You see, God is the same, has always been the same. God's kindness has not changed from the very first moment God granted it to me 14 years ago. Though I am to wait for God, I am never required to wait for God's kindness - it has never been denied me.

The God of my life now is the same God of my life 10,000 years from now. I will always understand more as I watch God - and it occurred to me that God truly does not postpone any good thing.

I've always anticipated the complete transformation of my flesh on some future date (while walking in the Garden), but the pieces came together, and I realized I am not required to wait. This great thing I begin, I will most certainly complete.

I reminded myself of when a friend called me his smartest and stupidest friend and I nearly ridiculed myself for not understanding this sooner. I likened myself to a kid playing in the dirt - this is when I was interrupted; my words and thoughts literally came to an abrupt halt.

What we have then is the complete transformation and resurrection of the flesh based on faith (from aging and decay to life). The transformation of my flesh is for my benefit and for my lovers' (of the Garden).

Christ, I've been made aware, can transform my flesh also for whatever purposes he decides (which is his business, not mine).

Though there has been immense value in the great wisdom I've received from those who walk with God - and I am so extremely grateful (for without you, there could be no me), this faith does not rest on words of great wisdom.

I have walked with God and I await God's hand on humanity so the living become the Garden - my faith is established on God's power - so I have healed and have been healed. This should all be interesting. The more I see and experience, the more I'll understand.

Saturday, February 29, 2020

Tweets - February 29th - Leaders

One of the qualities of any decent leader is that you're taking people where they want to go. If you take people where they don't want to go, then you are an oppressor, and those you lead are oppressed.

What do we call you when you seek to lead people to places they don't know or understand? You can not be called a decent leader - not when our feelings, values and understandings aren't as valid as your own; not when we are refused the info needed to decide if we should follow.

You deceive yourself, yet again, as you perpetuate this genuine lack of care.

Wednesday, February 26, 2020

Tweets - February 26th - Offensive Christ

Everything about Christ is offensive. He just does shit out of spite sometimes. For instance, he didn't have to go out and gather food on the Sabbath - breaking commandments as it were. He certainly didn't have to take your sons with him, having them ignore the law all the same.

He could have gathered all his food the day before, but nope, he was set on triggering all those crotch-covering conservatives. Then he had the nerve to "lead Israel astray" by having people follow him. There was no way he was making it past 33 years in this place.

He didn't have to take your sons and daughters out to party and get blasted with sex workers while they caressed and licked his feet (and likely other body parts). He was in his early 30's ya know. And he didn't have to condemn your hypocrisy, who wish to do the same in secret.

Christ has not changed one bit in that regard. He could have called heterosexual conservatives to lay the road leading to God's Garden (eternal life - in the flesh), but nope, he had to be himself, he had to be spiteful and offensive.

He chose irreligious unbounded fags to lead the way, just to piss people off - and people will be pissed off and take severe offense once they catch wind of what Christ is doing.

There was no way he was going to pay a visit to this place in person, not for 2000 years. He's probably packing an enormous dick, and out of spite, would walk up in someone's church naked and start slanging that thing around. They would seek to crucify him all over again.

Would you ever hang with someone who found you repulsive and offensive? Certainly not for any extended period of time. You shouldn't expect to walk side-by-side with Christ until you can find nothing he does shameful or offensive. Until then, business as usual (the grave).

Tuesday, February 25, 2020

Tweets - February 25th - I am me

When I left religion (Pentecostal, Christianity), the idea of homosexuality (or any sexual act) being a "sin" flew out the window. It was nothing I ever thought or questioned since. I am me, and my humanity and sexuality is unashamedly intertwined with my personality. I am whole.

I am gay insomuch as it matters to you, but I could have never known the term "gay" and I would still be me. There is no other version of me - so to reject me for being gay is to reject me and my humanity altogether.

Besides mercilessness and injustice (things you hate done to you), God is not judgmental. For God to be as judgmental as the most vile and heartless people of this world, and then to reject me because I am gay, is literally no different than God rejecting me for having skin.

Either I am completely acceptable to God (because I can only be myself, or a liar), or I am rejected altogether.

But if God has a problem with me being me, God can lobotomize me - chop out half of my brain (which is the only way I could no longer be me) - which sounds a hell of lot more "loving" than sending me to roast for billions of years.

If I am sent to burn because I am gay, it was only because God put in the absolute least amount of effort to ensure I wouldn't burn. If you judge and condemn me because I am me, it was only because you put in the absolute least amount of effort to even try to be a decent person.

Monday, February 17, 2020

Tweets - February 17th - Humbling of humanity

Everything that exists is a manifestation of the "stuff" and substance of God. God is in everything and through everything and is everything (so the theory of angels go). What God destroys - according to God's own character and will - God rebuilds.

Whatever part of God that God "destroyed" all those billions of years ago God is rebuilding in to what we call "the universe"; turning substance and chaos into a system that God finds absolutely pleasing.

Such will be the humbling of humanity when they confront the unashamed honesty and power of the Living God who destroys and constructs the land of the living for the living, and for God's delight.

For whatever reason, God highly values our liberty, and humanity continues to be a risk that God is willing to take. Through God's power, we will learn to use steel-bristled brushes to scrub the stains of bloodshed, religion, injustice, and indecency off our tongues and hands.

Friday, February 14, 2020

Tweets - February 14th - People are people

Going back far enough I was very comfortable with myself. I was a little gay boy that thought some of the other little boys were cute. Unfortunately, by the time I was 12, the damage had already been done.

I was made to feel uncomfortable and hate who I was. Leave it to the human race to teach their own children to hate themselves. "Mercy", they say in their hearts, "is for those who deserve it." Who more undeserving than a little gay kid who thought some of his peers were cute?

Wish I would have used more genderless terms because going back that far I probably didn't even know or care that I was a "boy". But I was surely made aware over next few years.

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People are people. Before you are anything else, you are a person. A person having a vagina or not doesn't make much difference to me (with regard to them being a person). Whether you have a penis or not, you are still a person and should always be treated as such.

Treating others in ways you'd have them treat you cannot be limited to people you know, love, like, or understand. But this is the human race, where people preach one glorious righteous holy thing and perform a whole 'nother.

Such hypocrites are worthy of everything that God is handing them. Next time you go to church, be sure to carry a mirror with you - and if you're feeling really judgy on Sunday, be sure to hold the mirror up to the Lord's face so he can see the type of person he's created.

Wednesday, February 5, 2020

Tweets - February 5th

There is nothing human-like about the universe, or nature, or nebulas, or dirt. There is no touch of humanity in anything outside of what humans make.

God is unique, and all those unified systems speak volumes about the ideas of God. But then we have holy books, like the bible, torah, and quran that are considered "God inspired" or "the Word of God". Everything about these books shout to us, "human!", "human!", "human!".

Instead of looking at everything (the universe, nature, dirt, life, death, etc.) as the open, honest, enigmatic, and unique word and language of God, we are encouraged by man to put these things secondary, and consider holy books the most important resource when it comes to the "A, B, C's" of God (e.g., understanding gravity won't stop God from tossing you in hell, turning the heat up to the highest possible setting).

I choose to believe God everyday, and everyday I am given something new. My abilities to read and understand human languages are never a requirement. How cruel and unjust a requirement?