Tweets - December 5th - Is this the Garden of God

I received a peculiar response from heaven tonight.

I purchased and moved into my condo back in 2017. I'm pretty sure the HVAC system that came with the place also came with the condo when it was first built (back in 1978).

The system was never strong enough to cool my home in the summer or heat it in the winter - so it would run non-stop, never getting to the degree I set it at - even when the emergency heat was running.

This had a HORRIBLE effect on my electric bill - but my brother lived with me and helped offset the cost. In 2020 (in March I believe), I went ahead and got a new HVAC system installed.

Since my bedroom faces the rising sun, it's comfortably cool in the summer but gets extremely cold in the winter, so I purchased a heating blanket and then later a ceramic space heater (the kind with the built-in fan to move the air).

After I got the new HVAC system installed, I no longer had a need for the heating blanket and only used the space heater (that way I can keep the rest of my home cooler at night and only keep my bedroom warm - to save on my electric bill).

Later in the year, when covid really became an issue, I began working remotely - and I have been ever since.

Back in early October (of this year), I woke up one day with incredibly intense pain in my head, face and my left-upper jaw. I thought something was going on with my teeth.

It was strange, because I've had tooth pain before, and my teeth weren't sensitive to the touch - but it still felt like they could fall out at any minute. "Maybe I have an infection", "Maybe I was grinding my teeth", I thought. As the hours went on, the pain dissipated.

Next day, woke up again, exact same pain. So at this point, I'm thinking there's something I'm doing - because I had no pain last night. But I still didn't know what I was doing to cause the issue. What was different?

I believe at this point I realized that it might not be my teeth at all, but rather my sinuses - but I still had no idea what exactly was the issue. "I had the space heater on - could that be it?", I thought.

Then I thought, "But how? I've had my space heater for a few years now, and have used it every fall/winter since."

Still not entirely convinced of anything, my brother had an old Mucinex pill - so I took it thinking it might help alleviate the pain. BIG MISTAKE. Gurl, that is not what Mucinex is for.

I felt even worse - so I forced myself to go to sleep - and sleep until I felt better, which I did toward the evening.

So then I did a google search - space heater and sinus pain - and there were immediate correlations. "But why so different now after so many nights of use - after all these years?", and I thought, "I wonder if it's because of my age."

I stopped using the space heater and began using my heating blanket when needed along with a humidifier and haven't awoken in pain since.

This past Thursday, I went to a funeral - I had been driving for about 1.5/2 hours with the heat on (I was initially given the wrong address - wrong city and all - and that increased my drive time). But no issues.

The funeral home required everyone to wear a mask, so I wore a mask. Toward the end of the service, I had a small headache - it reminded me of the sinus pain I had, but no where near as intense (so I wasn't sure if it came from wearing the mask or the car heater).

My drive home was about 40 minutes or so - still had the headache/pain. When I got home I turned on my humidifier and the pain went away after an hour or so - which leads me to think that it was the heater.

The next day, I watched my humidifier as it pumped out mist and I asked, "Is this the Garden of the God?"

If I have to be anxious about anything then I have to be anxious about everything - and I much prefer to not be anxious anything.

(This is due to the Power of God, and not my desires - as it was God who took away the need for me to be anxious about anything before I knew the option existed.)

One thing that I have asked of God is that my default response is to rest in the faithfulness of God - in the midst of me not knowing, in the midst of terror, in the midst of pain.

When I don't understand, sometimes my immediate response is anxiety and concern - I usually come to my senses (aligning my mind and heart) - but sometimes that first reaction is not what I want (being anxiety).

While sitting outside tonight, the heater and pain became something I thought about. I said, "I didn't have any pain before I began using the space heater" - and a spacecraft flew overhead and became extremely bright in response.

Being very curious of the emphasis of the response (which means YES!!!!!) and very curious of the "why" of it all, I came inside and googled, "Why do space heaters affect sinuses?" - to see if there was a known answer.

I went down a rabbit hole and saw other things about being in the house all day and constantly in dry heat.

I understand now my issue is the sum of things: being home 24 hours a day most days of the week, having efficient heat from my new HVAC system, low-moisture in the air - the space heater was the nail in the coffin.

At this point, loving justice continues to be required. I don't use the space heater anymore (unless my heating system goes out - which it did once because of a blown fuse) and I keep my humidifiers running all day because of the dry heat.

If I've caused any damage to myself that I cannot rectify, then I only wait for God to be glorified.

Tweets - November 3rd - Can I share a thing

Something I shared on Facebook. It was really in response to something one of my cousins wrote: "Prayer works"

Can I share a thing?

We don't have any control over God's decisions, not from the beginning until now. None of our actions dictate God's choices. This is evident in what we see, what we have always seen. To say that God works to do a thing because we pray for it just isn't true. It may be what we hope for, but it isn't what we see.

The great genie granted us our wishes because we rubbed his lamp in all the right ways, and now we are never sick, we never suffer in our labors, and we never die.

We know there is no genie. God is severely honest with us, and has made plain to us that God is no genie.

Am I saying that God doesn't answer prayers? No I am not. But I am saying that God is honest with us about how God feels about us. I am saying that God will have mercy on whomever God wants to have mercy. The choice is God's alone, not yours, not your mother's, not your ancestors', not because you are good, not because you help the poor, not because you help the sick, not because you are holy, not because you follow the laws and commandments, not because you descend from Abraham, not because you are better than, not because you destroy God's enemies, not because you lead people to God, not because you worship, not because you understand scriptures - but ONLY because God made a choice. God does not owe anyone anything for any work or labor performed, nor does God accept any payments. If this isn't evident to you, then go out and do A and see if God does B.

When people pray in this place, it is like begging for something from someone who really doesn't like you. I suppose then this is a notable difference between a genie and the god of this world (the god of spirits and feelings): genies don't require begging, and you never have to make the same request more than once.

It is our hope that God loves us more than we love ourselves; that God puts more care into us than we are able to put into ourselves. (Though it is not what you see, it is what you hope.) If God doesn't love us more than we love ourselves, then we have always been ruined - we have always been destroyed - there is nothing to hope in - and God is as vicious and as cruel as the worst of mankind, encouraging and justifying all manner of treacherous judgment and violence (like the warmongering, rape encouraging, psychopaths who wrote Deuteronomy), rejecting mercy and instead demanding sacrifices of prayers and worship and animal blood. In which case I'd rather exist as a dog or jellyfish or bumblebee who blissfully live everyday anew, are not anxious of a future with or without God, and go back into non-existence when they perish (just as it was before they were born).

People who pray in this place are like the tormented who praise God because they had one single minute of their day without agonizing pain; or like the starving who shout praises of thanksgiving because they found a few breadcrumbs on the floor; or like the destitute who leap with joys of praise because they found a penny in a trashcan.

If this is all that God is willing to give, the most that anyone could ever expect from God, then this is not God loving us more than we love ourselves. This is not love at all. This is a master/slave relationship where we must work and beg for the teeniest tiniest bit of mercy and kindness (meaning that what we receive when God gives in to our pleads and beggings isn't actually mercy or kindness - but rather some other ego-filled aggressive nonsense).

Why is this not love? Because it isn't how you want to be treated, it isn't how you'd ever want your children to be treated. Because justice is rooted in love and mercy. Justice is setting right what is set wrong, building up what needs to be built up, leveling what needs to be leveled, restoring what needs to be restored, repairing what needs to be repaired. Mercy is the act of creating conditions for justice to exist. And love is the deeply empathetic motivation to do justice. As such, there is no true difference between kindness and justice.

Let us be honest. Is what you receive from God, for all these years, justice? Likely not. Not with all the begging and pleading and the thousands year hope of a future that is always just around the corner. As for this race (humanity), hope is in death. It is the common feature of most religions. Any real and worthwhile acts of kindness from God will have to wait until you drop dead. It is what those before you taught you --- but it isn't what God taught you. You don't see God with you in your flesh so God must be with you in the spirit. "God isn't much of a father to me right now, but he will be later in heaven. God is not kind to my body, so God must be kind to my spirit. The alternative is that God is not with me at all - and that is unacceptably untrue."

How can you be sure whether or not God is with you? Find a person you are certain is without God - do you see God treating them any differently?

We can be sure that if God made us God's choice, and God chooses to answer a prayer, and God loves us more than we love ourselves, then whatever we receive will be justice. It won't be a painless decade, or a million breadcrumbs, or a trillion pennies, it will be an end of oppression (even in the forms that a faithless mind would ever consider). Justice doesn't require you to ask for it, nor is its services rendered by payments of prayer and praise; it is freely given as often as it is pursued.

BTW - regarding Deuteronomy, it was both Jeremiah and Zephaniah who said that the priests and scribes did violence to the law (to you, the law is a cohesive whole and the word of God, to them it was not).

"Thus says the Lord of hosts, the God of Israel: 'Add your burnt offerings to your sacrifices, and eat the flesh. For in the day that I brought them out of the land of Egypt, I did not speak to your fathers or command them concerning burnt offerings and sacrifices. The lying pen of the scribes has made the Law into a lie." ~ Jeremiah 7 & 8.

"Woe to the oppressive city! Her leaders within her are roaring lions; Her judges are wolves at evening; Her prophets are insolent, treacherous men; Her priests have profaned the sanctuary. They have done violence to the Law." ~ Zephaniah 3

Tweets - October 17th - Justice

Several spacecrafts flew overhead tonight. One spacecraft was bright, but not exceedingly bright, and flew across the sky with consistent intensity. No messages were given, but their presence was very reassuring based on the insights gained over the last few weeks.

If there was a theme of my life based on the things that have occurred with me over the last few years, it would be "justice" - perhaps even, "the pursuit of justice". Justice: setting right what is set wrong.

The biggest takeaway for me is that "walking by faith" IS pursuing justice. Regarding transformation, walking by faith is the first step of kindness toward yourself. Everyday, you know that you will be healed. Everyday, you know that you are being transformed.

My advice: take notice in the beginning, in its inception, and walk by faith - I hope the distance will be shorter.

Whether by action (justice), or by inaction (justice), or by natural processes, or by inspiration, or by heaven, or by God - God remains faithful to see it through according to God's glory.

Tweets - October 10th - Claims

When you spend time with angels and time with God, you learn things, you are given things - some of which put you in very deep thought. But God gives you things and makes things aware to you that are otherwise not apparent to those who do not know God.

So what this means is that sometimes, when we talk about these things with others, we are left with claims that we cannot directly prove.

Christ was able to circumvent the brutal insults and condemnation this can cause - for a few years - by stuffing his claims inside of parables. One of which went something like, "What you put in your mouth cannot defile you, only what comes out of your mouth can defile you."

He otherwise would have struggled with telling a generation of Pharisee following Jewish folk that God does not actually care if you eat a porkchop sandwich, but God does care about you judging and condemning your neighbor.

It's like me telling a bunch of "the bible is the word of God" Christians that Christ doesn't care about people aborting a fetus or fags tounging each other down in a three-way.

A reasonable claim is, at best, plausible. And that is ALWAYS OK. A claim in and of itself should never be regarded as the complete and absolute truth - regardless of whoever is making the claim (on Earth or in heaven).

The only way one can consider a claim "the absolute truth" is to give authority to the one making the claim. Christ made a claim, "nothing you eat can defile you".

Now, one could say that Christ simply had the authority to make all foods clean; and the author of the gospel of Mark did just that by explicitly stating that Christ, "declared all foods clean".

What was not clear to the author of this gospel is that Christ was no authority, nor was he seeking authority, nor was he making a claim because of some supposed authority that a bunch of godless people attributed to him; he was simply sharing with a godless generation what he learned by watching God and by knowing and understanding the Kingdom/Garden of God - and that was 1) that God blesses whomever God wants to bless, regardless of what they eat, regardless of when they eat it; and 2) that the pursuit of justice and mercy and kindness, the pursuit of human decency, is for our sakes and not for God's.

Of course, Christ's claims meant nothing to most Pharisees: "you say it's OK to put whatever you want in your mouth, the bible says it's a sin".

But God is who God is - so Christ was never alone and God's mercy and power followed him wherever he went - proving Christ's claims to whomever God wanted to bless.

Christ made claims that were impossible for him to directly prove, but they were claims that would only be proven by God. A whole generation of Pharisees died and turned into dust, and Christ was given life eternal.

Claims from heaven are rare - and even then, should not be regarded as the absolute truth in and of themselves. Besides, not everyone flying above is a truth teller. Only a lying devil would assert authority and declare that their claims are truth enough.

One such claim given to me 15 or so years ago, which I couldn't grasp at the time, is that there is no separation between God and everything that exists - God is everything in everything.

Can heaven prove such a claim? Of course not. Only God can prove the truthiness of such a claim.

I have been able to observe. God speaks and interacts with us by way of the universe - from healing, to lessons, to eternal life, to wrath and judgment, to anguish, to death. God has no need for esoteric revelation, no need for spirits, no need to whisper things in people's ears.

How do you convince a blind infant that the sky is blue? You heal the infant's eyes. God is faithful, and understands the nature of an infant, and understands the nature of an infant's eyes.

Tweets - October 9th - Truth

The last 2 times that heaven spoke with me, they've used both my personality and my lived experiences as part of the message. Both times, the spacecrafts flew and became very bright. I was puzzled both times they became luminous, but each time, the message soon became clear.

The first message occurred a few weeks ago, either late August or early September, I was told the truth will do its own convincing - the truth is compelling. Since I haven't seen angels much recently, such events are important.

Then tonight, the second message, I was shown the truth can be exaggerated and dramatized for comical effect.

As for why I was initially puzzled each time, it was because I wasn't discussing anything with heaven. I was having thoughts and reflecting, and they interjected.

The first time, I was compelled by a friend's conviction. I believed them, undoubtedly. Though as the hours went on, I began to wonder if they were being honest with themselves or simply telling themselves (and me) what they wanted to believe was true.

The second time, I was entertaining myself with a likely and funny story.

Tweets - October 3rd - Thank you

One of things I don't really care for is when a parent tells their child to say "thank you" to me after I give them something. I know that this place has a trauma-induced incredibly huge ego problem, so people need to hear a "thank you" after they do something for you or say some "nice" thing to you.

Sometimes I am overwhelmed by the deeds of heaven, and I am so deeply grateful, and I thank heaven and I thank God. But I don't thank heaven to glorify heaven, I thank heaven because heaven glorified me. And they have never responded, "You're welcome".

Everything is a gift, and everything will be a gift. Their effort is a gift, and my effort is a gift.

Tweets - August 13th

The hour is coming when not even a single soul will dare utter the words, "Thank you Jesus". They will be so far broken that they will have nothing to boast in, not even their lord.

"What do we do wrong?", they ask. You offer up your brothers for money and your sisters for pride. You continually convince yourself and your neighbors that your destructive evil is good. You walk up to God's altar and present to God books filled with vomit and lies and violence, and you say to God, "this is your word - this is who you are", and then you destroy human nature and you teach your children to do the same, condemning (in your heart or with your mouth) those who don't do the same. I won't have to deal with the current version of "you" for much longer.