Ever since I first began walking with God, I was sure to assume nothing about God. I had long since stopped listening to people's talk about our Maker, as if they knew the difference between truth and belief - even though their aggressive stand is that they are one and the same. So in the beginning, I thought that it was our place to do good, change the world into a beautiful home for all generations, and then rest unconsciously with our ancestors forever. I had no thoughts whatsoever concerning an afterlife - it just didn't fit with life and all that God was showing me. Why all the due-diligence with good work in this world if there is some other eternal world that our ghosts are going to live in after we're dead - it just didn't fit, so I didn't even consider it. But then God corrected my error and said to me, "Even when you are struck down, and your life is taken from you, I will quickly give it back and raise you up, flesh and all, to life eternal." It was an "Ohhhhhh!!!" moment; it all made sense in an amazing and humbling way.
Perhaps you should consider your god. The fact that your god does nothing more, or anything different in life, than any other god should really tell you something. The fact that your god promises nothing in life should tell you a great deal about what it is you worship. The fact that you must construct your god in your mind from words of men and holy books, should be bothersome to you. If your hands do all the work that your god refuses to do, a light bulb should pop up in your head. If you have to strap a bomb to your chest because he won't lift a finger in your defense, perhaps you should reconsider. Your ancestors, who've worship any number gods throughout the generations, were left to suffer and rot in some God-forsaken grave forever - they and their children. Your worship of "the one and true god" has provided no different outcome than your ancestors who worshiped some other "one and true god". Not one of your songs, dances, chants, shouts, sacrifices, meditations, charities, sufferings, baptisms, nor explosions have moved your god a single bit - does this tell you anything?
Seek the Living God so that you may live. Shut up your songs, and let good flow from you like an ever-flowing stream. Be no man's doorstep, but be an overcomer. Do good so that you may live.
What has violence proven in our world other than that it produces more violence? It has been said that we should heap kindness on the heads of those that do us wrong, and I would partly agree. I fully agree that we should not return blow for blow, but that when we are struck, we should go our own way in peace. You will look on with your eyes, and you will watch the wicked perish. Their eyes will not see God's habitation. I walked with a low head out of the dungeon of our exile, being so long kept away from God's heart, and I walked into a place that is not easily described. I have seen things that no other men on this planet have seen; and I have experience pangs that no other women have experienced, as our world is crushed under a load of wealth and brutality. But our goal could be common, if you only put aside your bad behavior and the thought of bloodshed, and seek the face of the Living God so that you might become a faithful kid; a kid who will become unafraid of the arrows that fly by day, and of the pestilence that stalks by night.
God's habitation - the life and garden for lovers - the Garden of God Eternal. I am gay, I have enjoyed the male physique for as long as I can remember. To walk naked in God's Eternal Garden is my rest.
