Tweets - March 19th

I don't always mention those spacecrafts when they fly overhead at night, but sometimes I do, especially if I think the message should be shared. 2 spacecrafts flew overhead tonight.

I've noticed for some time now that I sometimes have to force a smile on my face and lighten my eyes when I'm around others. It's been a while since I've been in a really good mood. I went to a drag show 2 weeks ago at the Warner theater in DC, and it was just like being at home.

So tonight while outside, I looked up and asked, "maybe I'm sad?", and a spacecraft flew overhead in confirmation. This explains a lot actually. I'm not sad, as in "woe is me", nor do I feel like crying or that I should be balled up in some corner (which is why it's perplexing).

I feel like I could take on any mountain and stand against the foolishness of this world. But still, there are some emotions I need to understand and deal with; I think I'm holding on to something that I need to let go.

I then thought more about the message I received and while speaking said, "I don't lack any good thing." Then the second spacecraft flew overhead in confirmation. This was an inspiring message and is all something for me to ponder on for a while.

Maybe I'm not holding onto anything. Maybe it's just the sum of my anguish and dealings with this world. If I were surrounded by people who'd rather turn steel into frying pans instead of guns, I imagine I'd be in a far better mood. But I'll keep seeking until I find.

In any case, I'll be glad when I no longer have to wear this sackcloth.