Walking forward and not backward

All those years ago, I asked 3 times for God to send rain to Zimbabwe, to end their drought before the year (2007) was out. 3 times I received the response "Yes" above from the lights of those spacecrafts.

But how would the messengers (as I've called them) know? This is a question I can ask now, but wouldn't think to ask back then. Back then I was under the assumption that they received esoteric revelation from God, and relayed this information to me. Now understanding God (there is no esoteric revelation from God), how would they know what God is going to do (with certainty) outside of what God has already been doing? It did rain in Zimbabwe, and the place was flooded and people died, so I doubt it would have been the messengers who heated the oceans and sent downpours on Zimbabwe (and the surrounding nations). Even at their most severe, I don't see in them this type of behavior (the Golden Rule of decency applies to them just as much as it does me).

One theory came to mind: they weren't telling me that God would send rain, but just that it would rain (which is easily predicted with the right set of tools). But then I thought this would've been deceptive, because I didn't ask IF it would rain, I asked God to send rain.

Understand, I haven't thought about these things in years. So after thinking about these things, I was led to faith. They understand God by what they see God doing, so they trust in the mercy and faithfulness of God and have faith and trust in the arm of God. But was this enough for them to be certain of and to confirm to me that God would do something so strange as send downpours on Zimbabwe? This has been on and off in my mind for the last week or so. Today, as soon as I woke up, I had an "Oh!!" moment. I've been so focused on "how they knew" rather than on "what happened" (which is where the answers can be found). What happened was that I was encouraged to go out into a world, among a people, I wasn't familiar with, and make a fool of myself in front of a bunch of broken, blind and deaf people. I asked God for something, and the messengers encouraged me to understand God and to trust God in what I asked for - just by shining a light. I asked once, and I received "Yes!", but to be sure I asked again, I received "Yes!", but to be really really sure, I asked a third time, and I received "Yes!" again. I became as certain and as trusting as I possibly could, without trying. In November it began to rain - their drought had ended, and I was no longer a fool.

But even after all was said and done, I still lacked understanding, which forced me to become a true fool, to sit down, to be quiet, and learn several new lessons. Lesson number one, God is at liberty and all of God's work is God's choice and discretion.

As such, this morning after my realization, I made a new request to the God of the Living. I asked for God to make the Garden of Yahweh visible in my flesh, turning something older into something younger, exchanging my ashes for beauty. The Garden is visible in my walk, but I asked God to make my flesh glorify God so that people can see God speaking to me, so that they can understand salvation. I am in no rush personally - these things are my future (and I anticipated them as such) - my youth will not benefit my own sake (not intentionally); but my desire has become God's desire - to turn deep darkness into light, turning the foul stench of humanity into a sweet fruit. All these things must be made God's business before they are my own. So each and everyday, I will take note of every small and large change I observe.

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Tweets - 1/5/2020

Sat outside and I was corrected tonight on one thing. They didn't know "for certain" anything, it was "extremely likely". The future is not something that exists.

There was also a spacecraft that shined a little bright, went a little dim, shined brighter - on repeat. Then as it started flying overhead it pierced brightly and sharply very fast. It went dim and pierced brightly and sharply again. This will be my tongue as we move forward.