Tweets - October 12th thru 14th - Walking Alone

I needed to remind myself that I don't walk alone. I know that I don't walk alone, but I had to remind myself that God is with me in everything - traumatic events change you in unexpected and unanticipated ways, even for years.

I'm currently in Delaware. I went out to the end of a pier a few nights ago,  and a spacecraft flew. I didn't expect to see it as I wasn't discussing anything in particular - and I hadn't seen them fly since August I believe.

I've realized that I don't need to concern myself with anything. My worry is not God's worry. God has infinitely greater foresight than I do. So if God was ever concerned, it occurred a long time ago, and plans were set in motion to deal with whatever had been concerning God.

Since God is with me, and my flesh and the broken glass my bare feet walk on all belong to God, what is my concern? The liar, the salesman, and the false prophet - God saw them all coming a long time ago, and has been weaving them into the plan ever since.

People liken light to joy, but my light is not joyous. I live in a world where the things I want don't yet exist. I long for a people who haven't yet been born. God will never hand the Garden over to a people who'd wish to control it. So I'm gonna do my part, whatever that is.

I have ideas, but I'm not even about to walk anywhere alone. I am subtle; people mimic my behavior even when they don't intend to. This is why patience, mercy and forgiveness are of great importance, and why trying to control people is unnecessary and overall harmful.

We're really playing the long game here. I am a child in a Garden. Makes sense to me to rely on mercy rather than control, to wait for God (my Mother) rather than plan a siege. But this wouldn't sit well for a people, for adults, who fear and look forward and only see death.

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I am aware of my audience. Forgiveness is enduring. Forgiveness does not forgo transparency or justice, but it does precede these things.

People are often powerless, whether they recognize it or not, and so they have no other choice but to forgive when they see or receive injustice. Would you forgive if you had the REAL option and power to do something other than forgive? Believe who you are.

The downside is that people are without God and so walk alone, so any "justice" has to come from a court ordered decree or from a personal gun.

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I am unsatisfied with my last set of tweets. I was thinking out loud and I doubt anyone can really get anything of value from them.

Forgiveness is an act, it's how I know that God has forgiven me of my past behaviors (treating people in ways I'd never want them to treat me). When I was forgiven, I was shown jaw-dropping compassion - but I was not entrusted with as much as I am entrusted with now. That took time for me to care and be in a position to receive the things I've received. I would also need to suffer the consequences of my own actions - this requirement did not disappear because I had been forgiven. However, my burden was not as heavy, and I did not have to do all the repairing all by myself, but I had to do much of the work myself. (Just making right what was made wrong.)

Eventually, God will forgive the world; this will be evident when God saves the dead. My hope is that, through the kindling of God's judgment, people end up in a position that God can save them while they're still alive, so this world can be transformed into the perpetual Garden.

There is the other side of forgiveness that isn't so much an act, but is rather the letting hold of a grudge for an injustice committed. That's up to the person. Just be honest about your feelings. But if in spite, you lay a trap for the person you hold a grudge against, you shouldn't expect God to remove the trap before you.

Tweets - September 18th - Universe

The universe is so simple that ants understand it completely; it is so complex that physicists are dumbfounded by it. The universe is an extension of God.

There is no part of the universe that is separate from God, and there is nothing that happens outside of God's approval. As such, in making things this way, God has made God knowable. Through deeds alone, God is understandable.

The mind of an adult will find God difficult to perceive because of all their opinions and philosophies and beliefs.

The mind of a baby will find God simple to understand because they understand decency and care, and they have no bias or preconceived notions about who their Mother is other than what their Mother shows them.

It is for this reason that you cannot know God without having the mind of an infant, effectively being born again.

Tweets - September 2nd - Warrior

Joel Osteen ~ Have a warrior mentality, not a weak mentality. You have to be more determined than the opposition. If you give up every time things don’t go your way, you don’t want it bad enough.

Is this not the song of a man who walks alone? How can you say, "God is with us", when your strength is in the skill and power of your own hands, and your faith nothing more than a series of feelings?

These prophets speak from their own sunken place as they convince you to be warriors who must fight, even for God. God has not sent these prophets, not any of them. This is going to be made clear as you watch God speak in foulness while these prophets remain silent in stupor.

Joel is a capitalist, a man of with a worldly mentality, and this is evident by his approach in dealing with conflict. "Do not lean on community, nor learn from one another, nor grow together, but be more determined than your opposition. Be a warrior. Take out the competition."

Tweets - August 28th - Offensive

The idea of God is often so profoundly offensive to people who've left religion. I sympathize with you, even with your bitter remarks. I was raised Pentecostal, and I was told by every child, adult, pastor and prophet that I was going to hell because I found men attractive. One prophet even said that God was going to burn all fags alive in fire in the year 2000, and like everyone else in that congregation, I believed him. Only difference between me and everyone else was that I was scared shitless; I was only about 15 years old at the time (1994/95). Any remaining childhood innocence and sexual liberty I had was taken away; it was gone. So (as many can relate - even those who have not yet left their beliefs) I hated the fact that I found men attractive, and I tried to like tits, I really did. I'm pretty sure I tried masturbating to pictures of women (the internet was still up and coming) - such a waste of time, especially since I still found my way to pictures of naked men. I became a bible thumper. I became arrogant; I was right, you were wrong and I was not afraid to let you know.

But in 1999, some people above decided it was time to throw a wrench in the cogs of my life, the life of a truly sad child. I was allowed to peek. "I did not ask for this!", "I did not want it!", "I did not want to see it!", "I'm already fighting my sexual attraction and you decided to do this to me!". It was like some woman flashed me her cooch, grabbed me by the head, and shoved my face into it. It offended me, and besides one person (who I'm still close with), I told no one what I saw (at the time). It was embarrassing, and I just didn't want another reason for people to point and laugh at me.

For sake of reference, a story I've since told a thousand times: "When I was a teenager, I worked at Six Flags America in Largo, Maryland. One evening, in 1999 while walking toward the employee exit, I looked up at the stars and an odd bright star caught my eye - it simply didn't look like the rest. While walking and staring at this odd star, the star shot off in a spiral motion and flew out into space at an incredible speed. I stopped walking and dropped my mouth in complete awe. I looked around to see if anyone else just saw what I had seen, but they were teenagers, running around and playing."

Even though I was allowed to peek, it still didn't stop my engines - I just lived with that annoyingly loud banging wrench for as long as I could; but they (pointing upward) knew my engine would slowly breakdown overtime, and there was no way I was avoiding it. No rush, everything on time.

So, you see, I'm looking forward to some of you being able to peek. If the idea of God offends you or if you are still religious, you won't like it. You might not see what I saw, as you may require something different altogether, but whatever it is, it'll be just what you need at just the right time in just the right way.

Acts 22:6-7 "But it happened that as I was on my way, approaching Damascus about noontime, a very bright light suddenly flashed from heaven all around me, and I fell to the ground and heard a voice saying to me, 'Saul, why are you persecuting Me?'".

The book of Acts was written by men who were ashamed of the liberty of Yeshua (Christ), but I believe this particular story because I can relate. As bad mouthed as I was, I was no violent murderous Pharisee. So a painful blinding light was not required for me, but it was for him.

Tweets - August 22nd - Peek

It looks like some people are going to be permitted to take a peek behind the veil. This was the message I receive tonight. What this means is that, for a brief moment, some of you will be stopped in your tracks in absolute astonishment. Beyond this, I can only speculate.

God wants a Garden of Liberty here, and it's ongoing construction is going to piss off a lot of people - even those allowed to peek.

Why a peek? Well, it is a nail hammered so far in your flesh that it becomes impossible to remove. You'll probably find it offensive, if not downright painful, but it will change you as necessary (for your sake and the Garden's).

You'll understand that the light of a child's endless youth and the darkness of an adult's looming death both belong to God; you are what God made you to be. You'll peek and see, and you may take offense.

Tweets - August 15th - Authoritarians

Authoritarianism is coming to an end. Authoritarians in the workplace, authoritarians in the home, authoritarians at the altar; they are all coming to an end.

So many people are going to be pissed off because they can no longer rule over those with less strength. They can no longer control others, they don't even have a say anymore. Boo hoo.

So many mothers, and fathers, and husbands, and legislators will be pissed off; they will see red and grind their teeth as they march toward the grave. People are really going to try to fight God on this. But God wants a Garden of Liberty here, and that's that.

God knows exactly who you are, exactly what makes you you, and God has solutions. The path is going to be tough to follow, even though it's as flat as a fresh paved road, even though there are lights as bright as the sun leading the way.

Tweets - August 7th - Timothy, Dicks and Women

I just read first Timothy (in the bible), and it literally mansplained to me the misogynistic message of what it means to be a church leader. I dropped my jaw and clutched my pearls a few times reading that book. For instance, 1 Timothy 4:6-7, "In pointing out these things to the brethren, you will be a good servant of Christ Jesus, constantly nourished on the words of the faith and of the sound doctrine which you have been following. But have nothing to do with worldly fables fit only for old women." I suppose it's only fair that I remember where y'all are coming from, but I've forgotten all of this, and I am not impressed.

First Timothy was written for godless people who understood that they were physically rejected by God, and any real hope of God's kindness would have to be reserved for the unseeable future (heaven, Jesus's return, rapture, etc). To them, it became all about being a believer and pious and full of good deeds (even though Yeshua the Christ, whom they rejected, said to them plainly, "Be honest with yourselves and do not do what you hate. For that which is in darkness will be brought to light."). So they started doing things themselves, not building on the law of human decency, but rather on the law of being obedient and having restrictive sex (and all the foulness sex represented to them ...and therefore God). Incidentally, first Timothy is centered on the awesomeness of having a dick.

"Therefore, I want younger widows to get married, bear children, keep house, and give the enemy no occasion for reproach; for some have already turned aside to follow Satan." ...by having too many orgasms while wearing contraception and not doing the dishes (or keeping house).

"At the same time they also learn to be idle, as they go around from house to house; and not merely idle, but also gossips and busybodies, talking about things not proper to mention." Those damned women. The lord really needs to get a grip and understand that having a vagina does not make you a lesser person, or a gossiping busybody.

Honestly, the book doesn't sound even like Paul. Maybe some of chapter 1, but none of the rest.