Tweets - September 16th - Praise

What is a rebuke other than encouragement to pursue what is honest and good? The more necessary the encouragement, the more severe the rebuke.

Last night I experienced a subtle rebuke, it was noticeably subtle and persistent - I didn't immediately grasp it. I was thinking about the time I complemented someone on how good they made the coffee - and the subtle rebukes began. Also, 2 or 3 of the "watching" angels showed up as well as some angels of affirmation. I was rebuked 2 or 3 more times, and then I understood the message.

The issue I am having is self-praise, and more specifically (after some talks with heaven tonight) the need to be praised. It is something I recognized a little while back - envisioning myself as a fantastic singer or piano player (not receiving rounds of applause, but admiring myself as such). I recognized it but didn't put much thought into it - not until heaven brought it to my attention so that I'd make it an important matter to myself.

I've come to understand that all these things are rooted in the pain and trauma I've experienced. As long as I am being praised, I am not being judged and condemned. It is very interesting to me. As long as I am being praised, I am not being made to feel ashamed. And to heap ointment on these open wounds, I praise myself.

This may seem like a small thing, but it really displays my scabs, my bruises, and my scars. Heaven insists that I be very aware of them.

Heaven rebuked me once tonight when I became concerned about how to deal with this issue of needing to praised. (Thinking deeply, "Now what do I need to do? Or is God taking care of it?")

How quickly I forgot that I only need to recognize these things, understand them as best I can, pursue justice (pursuing what is so very good and gentle and kind and true and joyfully human), and walk by the faith given to me.

Tweets - September 3rd - In Conclusion

When you've been moved forward, you can look back and see how you've been pushed forward.

I now understand that the individual dimly-lit spacecrafts that have been flying above these last few months have been acknowledging that they are watching me, monitoring my actions, and that I still need their attention and guidance in current matters.

2 nights ago I was thinking about the resurrection, and I was concerned about those people walking by faith and understanding the love of God (as faith, for me, has come because of the time spent with God and the wisdom and kindness and honesty of God).

A spacecraft appeared and sparked/flickered - but not brightly (as I was not being sternly rebuked) - but they wanted to alert me that I was getting off track. I then understood that I don't need to be anxious about anything, not even the Garden of God.

For the last few nights, including last night and tonight, I saw none of the "watching" angels, so I suppose this period and lesson has come to its conclusion, as heaven is satisfied in my position, and I have been entrusted to continue to walk on my own

(in this endeavor of being a human being who has regarded their humanity, acknowledging each emotion, all while pursuing what is honest and good; who sees that God is love, always receiving exactly what is needed; who leans on that love, which is God in fullness).

Tweets - August 27th - Pursue Justice

If you don't want your nation burned to the ground or weighed down by the pressure of heaven, then pursue justice. When you watch the waters rise and wash away the homes of those living in coastal regions, remember your deeds as a nation of the unjust cause, and pursue justice.

Depending on the severity and the consequence of the injustice, sometimes justice means you have to give away everything that you have to those who are being destroyed; sometimes justice means that you have to heal others at the cost of your own peace and comfort.

But in pursuing justice, you are on the path of forgiveness, and you might be permitted to live - you and your children. If you are not on the path of forgiveness, then you are on the path of destruction, and all that you cling to will be taken away from you by fire and by force.

Tweets - August 25th - Planting Flowers

Planting flowers in a garden. A few nights ago I was given both an affirmation and a rebuke in the same message. I was rebuked because I was not acknowledging my feelings.

I was talking about planting flowers, or maybe I was singing a song - I don't remember, but then I received both the affirmation and the rebuke by the bright angel.

A few weeks ago I met these 20/21 year old LGBTQ+ youth, and I was so amazed. It felt like a blessing sitting with them. They were quirky and gentle and themselves.

They shared their experiences, but nothing was too dark. I remember one said, "I just thought everyone liked who they like, but then I found out, 'NO, it's not that way'". They were like angels whose wings had not yet been clipped.

When I was their age, my wings had long been clipped, plucked, beaten, snapped, bloodied, and broken. I was nothing like those youth, and I perceive the wisdom in Christ's call on my life.

It seems we won't always have to wait for seeds to sprout. They were like flowers who were waiting to be planted in a Garden, whose soil is enriched, watered, and tended by its God.

Tweets - August 21st - God Wants

3 spacecrafts flew overhead at the same time in a triangular formation (12 , 6, and 9 o'clock positions from my point of view). This occurrence happened twice, on 2 different nights.

The spacecraft at 12 o'clock slowly became bright and slowly dimmed, then the spacecraft at 6 o'clock slowly became bright (with the same timing and luminous intensity) and slowly dimmed while the spacecraft at 9 o'clock dimmed out of sight.

There is nothing that happens to us that God does not want to happen to us. Saying, "God allows" is an incomplete statement. It is always true that "God wants", and in some cases, "God is doing".

Though this certainly does not mean that God delights in all things, but it does mean that sometimes gold (in its stubborn refusal to repent through loving justice) has to be burned and submerged so it can be refined and transformed into something valuable and eternal.

The message of the 3 spacecrafts, in summary, is that God truly is Love. There is nothing that happens to us that God does not want to happen.

For those of us who walk with God, there is nothing to worry about; there is nothing to look toward and be anxious of; we don't have to worry about what we will say or have; we don't have to worry about what we will do; we don't have to fear what is unknown to us; we never need to plan a siege, or consider our defense, or setup a scheme.

We are wounded because God led us in the direction to be wounded. We are sick because God planned and gave us over to sickness. God's hand is on us and with us, and we are never required nor expected to be afraid.

I know, it sucks - but it only sucks for a moment in time, and the Garden will be better off for it, I promise (according to God's promise). 

(Regarding all these things, I'm assuming we are not pursuing injustice, in which case we are simply receiving exactly what we deserve.)

We are who we are - we do not need to lie to ourselves about ourselves and we never need to plan to be someone or something else.

Understand yourself; do good in spite of your brokenness, and don't seek to be "unbroken". God repairs what we cannot repair for the sake of the Garden and the Glory of God - you just be yourself and pursue what is both loving and just.

As for those who cannot walk with God, you know the portion God has given to you (though you don't accept it as such).

There is everything to fear; there are a thousand things to worry about; a million things to consider - what will you say, what will you do, what will you eat, what will you wear, where is your help?!

Dig deep in yourself for your hope; prepare your defense; go get as many guns as you can; fortify your buildings with sand and steel; drape bedsheets over your wives and daughters; get ready to fight fight fight!!!

God is giving you exactly what God wants you to have; and fear, sadness, and anger have been made your portion. It is how God is saving you and the Earth.

There's that conflict in me where I see someone I've loved a long time in such awful pain, and I am both sad and joyful - sad because of their brokenness, and joyful because God is saving their life through destruction.

But I would so much rather you walk with God so that you can be saved without being destroyed; so I might receive double joy (in my selfish desire).

Tweets - July 26th - Oil

I recently made a new batch of oil for my hair and skin. I use avocado oil as a base, and add tea tree oil, jojoba oil, peppermint oil, orange oil, and vitamin E oil. I have it in my oil spray bottle.

The old oil has gone stale and now smells like old leather, and I didn't want put any in my hair - the old oil is in a separate container. So while sitting outside and thinking about the new oil and pouring some from the spray bottle into the old oil's container, I said, "I will dump out the old oil and pour in the new oil" and a spacecraft became luminous and brilliant beside the trees, but only for a few seconds before going dim. The folks on that airplane flying in its direction must've gotten an eye-full.

As for the meaning of oil in the message, I'm not certain. It sounds very Jewish - which makes sense as it was a Jewish Christ who called me. I'll take a look through their scriptures, but from what I remember, oil represents blessing and anointing.

Am I being told that I'll be able to remove from people what they consider a blessing (an old stale thing worthy of a dumpster) and add a true Blessing to them?

Tweets - July 26th - No Forgiveness without Justice

There is no forgiveness without justice. Any nation, state, kingdom, or person who lets injustice go on without being addressed has not been forgiven. Injustice is not permitted forever, not in this universe.

You won't get to sweep your bad behaviors under the rug forever. You will either be forgiven because you pursue justice, or you will be forgiven because you dropped dead.

ANY nation, state, kingdom, or person who does not pursue justice will be wiped off the face of this planet. No one is exempt.

God will have a Garden in the Earth. And that Garden is Justice and Mercy and Empathy and Decency. In God's faithfulness and trustworthiness, that Garden is Peace and Gentleness.