Tweets - July 29th - Shared the Gospel

A few weeks ago, I had this dream that I was over an attorney's house and he was having an event - a party. I didn't know the guy.

From what I remember, a door was opened (metaphorically), and I turned away from everyone and asked heaven to help me, and I shared with them the gospel - starting from what happened that night at Six Flags in 1999.

People confronted me and challenged me, yet there was no fight in me, and I spoke to them as if I were speaking to my mother. And when I woke up, something was stirred in me.

Last weekend, I shared the gospel with someone who was more or less a stranger. In hindsight, I do wish I would have included some things in the message and said some things differently.

All in all, the person was partially receptive, not combative at all, and didn't challenge me at all - they even repeated some things I said back to me (according to their understanding/through their own filter - that part was interesting).

To be honest when I first began speaking with them, I gathered that this person wouldn't insult me or be very combative, but I wasn't entirely sure (not that it mattered at that point). In any case, I imagine this experience won't be true for most others.

I've realized that I'm not a fan of doing the whole 1999 Six Flags intro, but I didn't know how else to begin. If possible, I'll need to figure that part out. Unfortunately, I couldn't start with Christ or salvation from death - but I certainly ended up there.

Tweets - July 17th - Arrogance

2 nights ago I mentioned to heaven that there is no room for arrogance. Three spacecrafts became luminous and flew together, all of which had different light intensities. I later mentioned again that there is no room for arrogance, and another spacecraft appeared.

Where we are headed, and this path we are on toward the Garden, there is no room for arrogance. What this really means is that love (active and deeply empathetic love) is going to be key to success.

We overcome arrogance by valuing one another FAR more than our successes, and what we have, and what we make, and what we own, and where we live, and what we do. This is proven easily by watching God, who has and owns and does everything, but boasts in nothing.

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Tweet - July 23rd:

We overcome arrogance by valuing one another as we value ourselves.

Tweets - July 14th - Brilliant

A few nights ago (the last time I was outside prior to tonight) while having dialogue with heaven, a spacecraft appeared and became extremely brilliant and remained that way as it slowly flew across the sky. The same thing happened again tonight.

There has recently been a lot of clarity on faith, and justice, and repentance - all of which are for our benefit, for our glory, for our peace, for the sake of the Garden.

I've previously said that there is no healing without justice, but I've come to understand that this statement is incomplete as it leaves little room for God's mercy and power. In actuality, just the pursuit of justice and repentance is enough for you to be forgiven and healed.

And though it is true that neither repentance nor justice can dictate God's actions, you are safe to lean on God's love (deep mercy, kindness, and power) and can safely wait for God. You are permitted to safely wait for God.

As such, I am expecting some doors to be opening soon so that I might walk through them so that I might tremble and share this strange gospel. Heaven was brilliant tonight.

The apostle Paul said that knowledge leads to boasting, but I say that it also leads to fear.

If knowledge and fear go hand in hand, then it would have been better for us to be born dogs or mice or ants, who have no perception of fear (beside what they perceive to be immediate threats).

If God required fear through knowledge, then God did a piss poor job of bringing about life in this universe and didn't think the whole "intelligent life" thing all the way through.

But this is the LIVING GOD's universe. Here, knowledge and life are permitted to go hand in hand; knowledge and a sound mind are permitted to go hand in hand; knowledge and liberty are permitted to go hand in hand.

All of these things depend, not only on the pursuit of care and justice, but also on us walking by faith and not by terror - (leaning instead on God's nonnegotiable loving care and power rather than the fear of the infinite unknown).

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Updated: 7/15/2022

I should make clear, walk by faith and not by terror. This does not mean we will not know terror. God is glorified first. God is glorified in part through our salvation, but especially the salvation of the whole world.

Sometimes waiting is required, but we never wait alone (I'm speaking to those who'll find themselves walking with God). We can't say when God or even heaven should or will do a thing. There is a plan in place in which we are just a part; but we are indeed part of a whole.

While we wait, sometimes the loud booms will frighten us. Sometimes people and things will be permitted to harm us. But in all this, we will not be destroyed. God is always being glorified - even for the sake of truth and for the salvation of our race from despair and death.

So, I'm saying that you do not have to take up arms, or be anxious, or worry about anything. Seek and do justice (to yourself and others), and walk. God is incomparably faithful, as you have seen and will see again and again.

Tweets - July 1st - Rebukes

I received 2 public and stern rebukes from heaven tonight because of my behavior. The first rebuke: "It's not all about you." The second rebuke: "You are on the receiving end of mercy."

The first rebuke, the spacecraft became very bright very fast, then slowly dimmed. The second rebuke was sharper than the first, and it made me begin to understand the first rebuke. The spacecraft was very bright and lower than typical and flew extremely fast over my home.

This also made me understand the peculiar appearances behind the trees a few months ago: I see what they want me to see; I have what they want me to have.

I am not owed anything, I am not due anything, there is nothing heaven gives me that I have deserved - this includes knowledge and information. No, I don't feel like I am owed anything or due anything, but I expected the outcomes all the same.

Angels were severe. It's not all about me. Heaven did not boast in its ability or its power, but was intent on making me aware that I am a piece of VERY BIG PLAN. I am moved when heaven needs me to be moved, and not when I want it.

I can investigate the things I have been given, but there is no need for me to complain about the things I have not been given - and CERTAINLY not make shit up when I lack information (because then I am no different than religious folk who do the same).

Another spacecraft flew, and I sat with my eyes glued to heaven and my mouth shut (I dared not speak). I will be better off for it.

After the rebukes there was sternness but calmness, and other spacecrafts flew and gave me insight into the rebukes and my behavior.

Tweets - June 26th - Jacqui

@RevJacquiLewis

I will admit, I had to do a double-take when I saw your face pop up beside Jesse Peterson's face. I don't normally see his videos pop up in my Youtube feed, but I suppose since I've seen a few of his videos in the past, and I've seen some of yours, it showed up.

My reaction: "What in the world?! She must not be acquainted with his interviews." I imagine that a bit of deception via omission was involved in getting you on his show.

It's one of those lessons learned situations, I'm sure. But the part of the interview that struck me, and the reason I even cared to post this, was the end of the interview. You said to Jesse that you weren't comfortable and you wanted to end the interview.

Jesse does not love others as he loves himself - this was all the more clear and evident to me when you said you weren't comfortable and you wanted to stop, and he completely disregarded your request (treating you in a way he would never want to be treated himself).

As you know "fierce love" begins with loving yourself. My advice (unsolicited, I know), when someone tells you through their actions that they don't truly care about you (in whatever way), then leave. Unless you have an obligation to stay, just roll out.

If you stay, you're likely going to get hurt and feel the need to fight (argue, debate, defend). No part of the conversation from then on will be anything other than a battle.

Since you didn't leave, Jesse (caring nothing about your discomfort) was able to charm and sweet-talk you ("if you're still uncomfortable, let me know"), drag on the conversation, ask you another question, and then mock your answer ("Obama causing the insurrection" -- he knew what you were talking about -- and lied to you and the audience by acting like he didn't know you were talking about Trump).

By staying and feeling the urge to defend yourself (I could see it on your face), you began making excuses on timing and how the interview was supposed to end at 4, and this being the reason you now wanted to leave (especially when he began picking at you saying you're "running away"). I thought your excuses were going to give him even more ammo because (it appeared to me) you became deceptive yourself, and I thought he was going to catch on and use it against you. (If you truly had been enjoying the conversation with a polite and pleasant person, would you still have needed to end at 4?)

I'm also aware of that internal conflict of caring about how you treat others (such as not hanging up on someone) and caring about how they're treating you.

But Jesse cannot treat you in ways he would want to be treated himself; his portion in life (total despair), and his theology and the interpretation of your scriptures teach him that he does not have to. What more is there to say at that point?

I would suggest you don't go back on his show - at least not to talk about the work you do.

He may mock you for it and try to incite you by calling you a lying pastor (since you said you wanted to reschedule), but this is the lesson and consequence of dealing with him after he told you plainly - through deed - that he doesn't give a shit about you.

Tweets - June 19th - Fighting

So I have since understood that I never ever need to fight because of fear or trepidation or anxiety, or for good or to be impactful; and in fact, I am being shown another way altogether: the plain simple upbuilding unopinionated truth, and emphasis.

I watched about an hour and a half of the Poor People's Assembly that took place yesterday in DC on YouTube, and some of it was beautiful and informative and some of the people's stories caused me to grieve.

What makes me a poor activist is that I hate fighting, always have. I'm not even talking about physical blows, I'm talking about arguing, quarreling, and sometimes competing - as an adult, it makes me tremble and shake, as a child it terrified me to sadness.

I remember when I was a kid, I was in Ocean City, Maryland with my family and their friends and their kids, and we were bowling at a bowling alley. My family and their friends and kids were having a ball, but I felt a deep sadness and I went to the bathroom and I cried and cried.

I did not like the competitive and demanding aspects of the game. I've been to a thousand bowling alleys since (I sometimes enjoy being around people that are having a good time), but I don't think I've bowled since that day in Ocean City.

So one thing I explained to heaven years ago is that I never want to be a fighter. If they wanted a fighter, they had the wrong person. But turns out, they didn't want a fighter at all, they wanted someone who absolutely hated fighting.

So I have since understood that I never ever need to fight because of fear or trepidation or anxiety, or for good or to be impactful; and in fact, I am being shown another way altogether: the plain simple upbuilding/destructive unopinionated truth, and emphasis.

Tweets - June 17th - Emphasis

Spacecrafts have been flying overhead every night I have been outside recently. (I suppose if you ever wanted to see them, now would be a good time to come sit with me, as I don't know how long this will last.)

Taking this personal deep dive has been forcing me to really pay attention to what people are saying and doing, and it is forcing me to consider their motivations (in ways I previously hadn't). A new thing is happening.

Tonight, several spacecrafts flew - some were brighter than others. A dim spacecraft flew, and I mentioned to heaven that the message from a spacecraft that is dim is just as important as the message that comes from the spacecrafts that are bright - but I remember the message longer when the spacecraft is bright with emphasis. A spacecraft became exceedingly bright in my peripheral, causing me to turn my head to look at it (it was the only one that appeared in that manner or became that bright).

You see, the message with emphasis also grabbed my attention.

I am considering myself, and where I will walk, and what doors may be opening for me to walk through. To some, when I speak, truth will stand alongside joyful hope, to others, truth will be weighty and painfully destructive - in either case, from what I've gathered tonight, I will provide emphasis as I see fit and heaven will provide emphasis as they see fit (there's nothing quite like an emphatic message from above - you are forever changed).